Build up treasures in heaven where moths cannot destroy...

1st cny

2009-01-28T21:25:00.002+08:00

1st married cny! Q a diff experience giving out red packets. every yr it's e highlight for me to receive. now i gotta tell myself it's better to give than to receive. and super not used to pple calling him xiao-jiu-ma or shen-shen. ha! i feel like a kid still.
grateful for e break. 5day work wk makes a lot of diff i think, emotionally. hopefully wont be swamped with calls when we all start taking leave in e next months to come.

used my rice cooker this posting. n loving it! b cooks really nice rice with dried scallop, chi sausage, dried shrimp and mushroom. for our own re-union i had a whole abalone in addition lor! sedap ++

and i got myself a thermal pot for cny. to cook porridge/soup. i cant stop marvelling at my kitchen. small like mad, but got all sorts of gadgets. as if i can cook. haha! but i baked pineapple tarts all by myself! with cheesie's gd recipe. huili and yx gave my pigeons. so i ended up doing it all myself. n it's seriously fantastic. i think e recipe is v gd.

mopex 30/1/09 2359hrs. still wavering. dun feel like listening to pple's advice. still wanna try Emed.at least e adrenaline rush will make me feel awake and useful, and i learnt so much during my time in sch, i believe i'll learn so much more thru work. God will open doors to e right place for me.
cant believe we're gg to be MO soon. incredible. how to guide and teach e new HOs? i'm still so green and blur myself. and my brain cells have been hibernating since Med was so long ago. ask me anything abt electrolyte imbalances and i'll just faint. it's 1 thing being 1st posting HO, and all e bosses are forgiving and just gd attitude can save e day, vs MO now they expect u to think and present meaningfully and begin proper mx plans. and running clinics! gdness! but i guess nobody will ever be really prepared.

are nice pple born in jan? so many wonderful, indescribably nice frens born in this month. wat treasures they are in my heart. love ++ =)

exceedingly random tots at midnite

2008-11-07T00:12:00.004+08:00

check out www.picasaweb.google.com/blurlinda for my wedding pics!
thanks to my frens who really love me. i'm so happy u're in my life, and share such a happy moment for me. =)

in colorectal now. wat a break from hepato and neurosurg. glad for e break, bef all my calls get crammed tog at e end of e month.

yest i bought drawing block. haha, started drawing really ugly stuff and coloring. but heck, who cares, as long as i'm happy. it's titled blessings. at least it's got a gd name. heh.
just like my most recent banana walnut cake. not nice but so wat, i'm learning to enjoy e process.
so many things i like to do, thou i dun do well in. y shld pple only like the things they do well in? haha, starting to explore kiddy stuff at my gd ripe age =)

recently had a free lunch w yx,pris,wt. yum! and i heard i got a new rice cooker. hehe.i bet tt's e most auntie bday present anybody's bought.

life can be so simple, and sweet, isnt it?
even a cake made with expired baking powder, and e wrong flour can turn out nice. plus 3 crappy shows is actu a nice and simple gathering.

then again, today i heard some horror stories from my fav MO. being responsible and acting safely is so impt. some things are just unbelievable. made me think abt my own scoldings and other near misses that did not get e scoldings. i wonder how many of my seniors actu had things to say, but were too nice to say to me. i hope they tell me off. & imptly, i must not make e pitfall of e stupid. which is, thinking u noe alot when u just noe e tip of e iceberg. how many times have complacency and arrogance caused mistakes..uncountable.
1/2 yr has passed. time to think abt wat i want to do. since young, for most part of the time, i've been pretty directed, and know what i want. but now, i do feel a little lost. been getting advice from a star-performer senior, which i dun totally agree with. i've got 40yrs to work still, wat's taking a yr to try things out?
just like my fav MO-turn-Reg. he did so many diff postings, and is so impressive, how does it matter he turns Reg a little later?
inspiring seniors are so impt. dinner today with fav MO also motivated me. sometimes, u need pple like these to remind u of wat's impt. i muz try to be a better senior =)

watching Ave Q tmr! heard so much abt it. if only our theatres are small as those in uk =(

married!

2008-10-08T22:41:00.002+08:00

lotsa things happened in last 6months!
final mbbs, grad, started nuh med, started paying alot of bills and ma, engaged, ROM, nuh surg, then finally married, honeymoon now gotta go back to work!
everything's kinda like a whirlwind. so fast no time to think, to feel, to ponder.
but now bef the dream gets better, it's back to Zzzz reality.
but thank God everything went smoothly. no major hiccups along the way. cos my plans were sorta like dominoes, 1 linking to next. so if just 1 of it stops, e rest will kenna stuck. haha.
thanks to all the pple who have helped me..from e nice tutors/MOs/HOs and of cos kakis who helped me to pass exams, to my nice nuh bosses/MOs and frens, to my family who cant wait to help me to shift out (anyhow pack my things over) and wonderful frens who chu qian chu li for my wedding.
okie, at least i can tick off q alot of life -To-Dos- off my list.

so now i'm comfortably settled down, albeit haven cooked a single proper meal/mop floor/wash toilet, but guess things wld turn out fine =)

btw, e cute animation during the dinner was my 1st time seeing too. haha!
alot of pple say i look gd on my wedding. normal day also pretty okie!
haha
my frens who'll marry next time, pls ask me to be ur jie-mei k!! i marry young doesnt mean i'm too old for fun! i'm a funky ah ma!! heheh.

1 month over! ramblings

2008-06-09T21:51:00.002+08:00

i survived 6 calls thus far! i deserve a pat on e back and a big bowl of frog leg porridge!
woohoo~. still, like wat my supervisor says, e feeling of impending doom bef each call is natural.. e trick is not to think abt it n juz do it.. every time 530pm comes i tell myself 8am will come!
cant wait to get call munny thou. havin 1st pay was gd! thou got nothing much left. haha. it's liberating, yet at e same time, heavy. aiya, so oxymoron. dunno how to say. like freedom comes w responsibility tt kinda cliche thing.
now i'm outta isolation. but still generally abit iso. today unkle mok commented i looked v stressed while reading sth. but e fact is i wasnt stressed at all. juz tt when i'm thinkin or doin work i look super fierce. ha juz like 1 senior MO. he looks scary like he's gonna bite u when he's not smiling. but when he smiles, he's like a teddy so cute u wanna pinch his cheeks.
thankfully my mos so far are well known for being nice.else isolation wld b harder to survive.

alot of things happenin at home! not only am i settling down, my bro's gettin his flat too! so exciting and scary at e same time. it's such a bane in sg isnt it, payin so much sloggin away for e rest of ya life for e rat hole. but we're all juz pretty much stuck in it. wellz, at least i think e place is really nice n centrally located. my hse now is like a warehse w 3 sets of sofa, how many thousand boxes and tables. when i get up to pee at nite i get abit disoriented even..haha! sometimes i cant rem wat bed i'm sleepin on, cos sometimes on call dunno where i am, then now my old double bed is gone n my room is totally diff.no wonder they say blind pple can accomodate v well in their own homes, but dun change their env too much..

my new fav food is bonjour choco bread. $2.90 and it's enuff for my dinner,supper,bfast,lunch! 4 meals! relly worth it rgt. i tot work wld make me slim down w/o my knowing. but weighed myself today i can oni kid myself thinkin it's bcos i nv pangsai/pee tt's y i'm so heavy. muz be e delicious venezia mango ice cream cake i ate yest. all it's fault. but oh man, it's absolutely fantastic. i really went high on it... EVERYONE PLS GO AND TRY. $45/kg. woohoo~ i think it hit my amygdala or dunno wat part of my tiny brain almost whacked me out.

anw, i muz have work-life balance and find time to bake pineapple tarts, and get oscar over to try her new atas cookbk. my linguine frm last time still haven cooked..

grad.work.marry

2008-05-10T11:35:00.003+08:00

so 1st of all lemme assert my firm belief that e oni thing we have to fear is fear itself--nameless, unreasoning, unjustified terror which paralyzes needed efforts to convert retreat into advance.

yet i'm so full of fear sometimes.
but at e same time full of thanks.

i've oni got 5 calls this month!! yay! i was e 1st to go on call in my batch.. i troubled e mo like mad..but thank God he's so nice.. ok impt thing is not to make e same mistakes again rgt? if i were him, i'll hate me lor. okie, next yr i muz b pt with my juniors too..

i'm in isolation..literally. i'm e lone ho in my ward, which is oso an isolation ward. n i realise i realli lack social skills. n being in isolaton doesnt help. i cant small talk or warm up to pple for nuts. i oni how how to keep quiet, talk less, try to do more. i think every1 muz b either thinkin i'm super duper boring, or v dao. it's not la. juz tt when there are so many things to do, of which so many i dunno, all my efforts will be spent on e tasks, rather than e pple. n all these yrs, i've left e niceties and talkin to cheesie to do. i always juz laze at e back n nod my head to second her. now i seriously dunno how to socialise lorz!
n i'm so eager to learn, but there dun seem to be enuff opportunities for me to ask, so when there is, i keep asking. i hope they dun think i'm too irritating.

all e same, i have a nice air-con ward, with really gd nurses, nice reg and gd senior which i always bug to help me do plugs. *sheepish*. n my reg always makes a point to sit down in e mornin w us, go through e comp every case, usu ~15 in all, of which 5 were new yest. i like these sessions alot, makes me go through e tot process, which is so impt n keeps me moving. else e jobs alone will make me sick. i think i shld bake cheesie's pineapple tarts for em. but really got no time. tmr on call again!
i think med at work is really more interesting than studying.. but med is also abt apprenticeship i think. its so impt to have gd seniors to learn from.. ahh..makes me think of my crush mo (now reg) haha!! i dun mind taggin to him for e next 5 yrs lor!!

but somethings really warm me up..let's recount:
1. b delivering old chang kee to me! and offered to stay w me for nite call, thou i think he wld b bored like mad, n cant help me too. but i really really apppreciate e tot and his prayer.

2. wes n huili always offering to help me! when i'm in iso w TB TB and more TB, it's nice to have someone to check on me, see tt i'm still alive.

3. my fav nurse, a v capable one too, gave me meiji yogurt today!! yummy!! and she said i've got gd attitude, v diff frm other hos. i was so surprised. i asked her is it?? i dunno how other hos are like, but i do noe i'm slow and incompetent n really need to do alot to make up, esp for plugs! anyway, e tongue can destroy or build up, and she really encouraged me alot. but i do think i'm more eager to learn during work, than in sch, and frm wat i see on facebk, alot of my frens are too!
haha i guess sometimes being stewpid is gd too. keeps me humble and hardworking. aftall, God uses e meek and disabled to shame e so-called wise, isnt it?
my iso ward is a gd place to start la.not too busy (thou i wonder how others out there are), gd nurses and bosses, and nice air-con!

4. i cleared up 7 left behind discharge summaries! stayed back on sat,sun, and cont on mon to clear up. at least the old is gone.
i realised altough for my personal life i'm q haphazard and lazy, for work i think i'm fairly responsible.i'll make sure i finish all my own work. mayb i'm not such a bad kid aftall. still, b said he'll rather see a sinseh than me.. *bish*

hope my call tmr will be a better one! juz e 1st wk. cant burn out so soon!!

Man propose God dispose

2008-04-03T00:05:00.004+08:00

birds chirp more happily...
e skies are brighter
e air is more refreshing..
i feel truly alive...
this is life aft MBBS...

so glad it's all over..loong loong journey.. like a marathon.. n i dun have stamina one.. and my brain is no gd. so it's really a big relieve..

ha, this marks e end of my student life..
so amazing.. and God has truly truly helped me so much.. else there's really no way i can go thru..

'O's.. nv do 1/2 my summary for Eng i still rem.. and my ang moh has nv been gd. n my HCL got A2 too..so a little less n no triple sci for me..
and all e IBS episodes.. where i was diarrhea-ing and pressing my tummy while drawin all e E maths perpendicular bisectors, and using my French curve.. and E Lit while i was scribbling like mad w 1 hand, e other pressing my tummy..

'A's.. althou my grades were pretty avg by rj standard, i cant hope for more man..
it's e best i can expect.. i noe my standards. really. and i was so hopin to get into Med sch..so i can do sth i like, and be in sg near my loved ones.

NUS.. thank God for a gd bunch of frens, esp Cheese who helped me so much. lazy me need lots of peer influence to work hard.. hehe ^_~ thank God for all e bursaries thru these yrs.. they really helped me alot.
and this final mbbs was really sth. all my long cases ie surgery,paeds, adult med are all type2 Diabetes.. haha.. there's nothing more straightfwd then this. NOTHING. and nobody evers get such coincidence.. alot of pple say i'm lucky. but i noe v well, tt God really gave me these to help me thru. bef e exams, i was thinking, even if i din make it this time, God has already blessed me w so much so much, more than i can imagine liao.

everything juz went so well in His timing.. all things truly work for gd..

now need to pack my feelings.. alot of stuff to do these 2 wks, bef results and orientation. i really need this time badly. and to meet up w all e pple i missed.

adulthood..sth pretty scary to me. but which is inevitable..and i think i have subconciously entered despite me still thinkin i'm a kid.

adulthood is an irreversible stage of responsibility characterised by:
1. aging parents leading to role reversal
2. bills and $ stress
3. marriage and family life +/- kids
4. work stress

haha!
e 1st time i felt like i was becoming an adult was aft PSLE.. when i set up my first bank acc.. OCBC.. got my atm card. a small taste of personal financial management.haha. 12yr old also can do this by urself. then in sec2 my 1st time holding on to street directory and finding e place where a bursary award ceremony is held..then debit card e wk i turned 18, when i promptly went to e ghim moh branch and signed immed.then gg to US on my own..survivin e many transfers.. and later uk by myself..

today i called up DBS loans hotline 6333 0033 to make some enquiry abt e nus loans, aft checkin nus student financial acc pg (u can check ya current loan status at nus pg).. this month will be a busy month meeting pple, takin care of loved ones, and plannin for future..

but e conclusion of e matter is, i'm thankful to God, and esp for giving me someone to share my life with..

mb this wkend. bs over

2008-03-25T02:36:00.002+08:00

1 wkend to go..then lotsa stuff to do during hols!
stress really can give u lots of prob man..

1. irritable bowel syndrome.
i kept diarrheaing lor! n tummyache. juz learnt today it's due to serotonin. i'm always like tt during exam periods..since psle i think.so now i noe y

2. loss of appetite

3. sleep disturbances/nitemares

4.post-trauma stress disorder. all e bad images keep coming back to my head

5. reflux and bad digestion. i keep feelin full, early satiety. then always like reflux cant lie down sleep properly. worsens my sore throat too.

so mayb chronic stress do lead to shorter lives..

copy frm lunch

2008-01-13T03:29:00.000+08:00

當你愛上一個人的時候，你就賦予了他傷害了你的權利。

so sad...but so true..

bla bla

2007-11-24T01:18:00.000+08:00

eh, e 1st cake is actu 90% guided by frens la haha. i baked e 2nd one today! total flop. sian. n last wk i tried cookies..which turn out to be more like cake cos i add too much water. piang. u realli cant complain when coffee club charges $5 for a slice. it's super hard la. n it's q an ex masak-masak hobby too.so many tools to buy. but it's q therapeutic..ur mind wont think of other stufff..juz like cutting nails..i love cuttin nails..

my tuition ended..been teachin him since his PSLE..wa he finish liao i haven lor. so funny rgt..hope he does fine..i got try hard liao, e rest is up to his 'zao hua'. but e mum is really nice.. taught him so long got a bit of mo qi liao..and i really see him grow up, thou he's still q a kid to me.

did u noe holland V sushi tei 2nd floor got nice rooms? thou not really enclosed private rooms but q nice. it's those u muz take off shoes sit on e floor type. haha am i q suaku? n e island creamery at bukit timah changed so much. i was a wee bit surprised we adjourned to part II of dinner. reminded me of b n his frens, who always muz have part II drinks or wat. wa we're really enterin e adult world. but in e meantime,while all e students are happily playin away, i'm still sulking sloggin away..

Love is ” … “

- When you find yourself ecstatic a moment and miserable the next.

- Having the privilege of stealing his food if it looks more appealing than yours

- When you find yourself in the wrong aisles at the supermart ridiculously looking for disgusting food that he likes

- Keeping your handphone close by even in the toilet and hallucinating that you heard it beep for an incoming sms

-When the usual dynamic, independent you becomes degraded to a whiny, unreasonable spoilt brat

- The lovely bliss when he holds your hand as he drives with the other hand

- When you stop to steal glances at him even though Tony Leung/Andy Lau/Tom Cruise is smiling at you on the movie screen

- If you enjoyed the sucky movie just because you were watching it together, hand in hand

- Laughing when you get more than 2/3s of the umbrella as both of you share it in the pouring rain

- Hating yourself for reading the same line of the textbook over and over again because you can’t get him outta your head

- The victorious feeling when he gives in to your most willful, nonsensical demands

- The silly smile on your face as you find all the above just too familiar to you.

www.kennysia.com

i copied from oscar blog cos it was really really v funny. but i took out e irrelevant bits. i'm happy for oscar =)

post SIP

2007-10-21T03:39:00.000+08:00

SIP can be real tiring man.. btw it stands for student internship program where we learn to function as pseudo-HO so next time we dun get a culture shock.
honestly i did try my best to participate actively. e worse parts were e calls n super long hrs.. aft my 1st sat call which went w/o sleep and food i really felt zombified..
my head was throbbing away my eyes were faint my legs weak n i really cant balance myself.. oh man.. i dunno how i'm gonna survive next time.. gd seniors n colleagues are super duper impt.
but i did learn alot from my med SIP esp. thanks to e best MO on planet earth. oh gosh, if tt MO is my personal tutor frm yr 3 onw, i bet i wont b strugglin so bad now. it's unbelievable how nice tt MO is. i sure hope he clears his exams.. i'll b so sad if he doesnt.
n i realise something. in med fac, alot of kindness is pay-it-fwd style. surgeons always treat juniors to tea in morn, my fav MO always teach n buy us lunches, prof soo teaches so well bcos he was grateful to his prev teachers.. it's actu q a nice and warm culture i think. we dun need to feel bad and reject others' gdwill, provided they really mean it of cos, but wat we can n ought to do is to pay it fwd. i guess actu tt's how e world shld function rgt.. always passin on to our future generation. juz like how parents take care of kids but kids can nv repay them, but instead care for their own kids in e future.. it's like e water-cycle liddat. haha.
hopefulli i wun be a meanie too. muz b happy to teach.. but not e wrong stuff to mislead! haha i have such a knack for being v confident when i'm teachin e wrong stuff to frens. haha!!

anw, my 23rd bday has passed! thanks to all who sms or wrote cards to me. i realli think i'm growin older.. nowadays, i appreciate 1-to-1 cards q alot. well, i've always liked 1-to-1 cards, but now, when every1 is all grown up and too busy, it's nice when some1 writes a single card, meaning i'm worth e time n i'm on person's mind. n actu rgt, i dun really need any fancy or ex present la. note: dun need ex present but still muz have ah!!

haha, anw, i baked e 1st cake of my life on 13/10! cool!! banana walnut cake. n it was e best cake i've eaten in my life..haha! w lots of bias of cos. but it's fairly decent la.cheese scolded me for not bringin to let her eat. heh..next time la. i ate fini everything liao..i muz use my nice oven more oft.. ok Christmas i'll bake a cake again.. kudos to huili who taught me!! she's so patient n nice! kiss kiss.
n yq n ht too! wa yq's noodle was super popular lor! so yummy! it really felt a wee bit like in uk where we cooked rubbish tt turned out v nice =)

playhse is next sat! for once lazy anti-social me will appear for e last 30sec. haha. at least i'm participating rgt. last yr liao. b is always scoldin me for being so un-active in such events so i decided to turn over a new leaf..ok mayb not in whole, but turn a wee bit. n who ask J to be so involved, i have to support rgt.. actu alot of e LT gang pple involved. wa i'm amazed w e techy backstage stuff actu. so cheem. if it's me ah, i think e play will end up to be a puppet show lor. cos i so primitive dunno how to use all e comp n stuff. their apple laptop alr makes me so blur.

recently saw a MO who was an M4 when i was M1..and a reg who was a HO when i was post-A levels applyin to uni. how things have progressed hor.. so fast! when i told e reg i followed her for a nite call when she was HO, she had to think really hard, n got a long searchin look in her eyes, as if diggin into real old memory..haha.. time flies... wld i b able to clear my exams? move on to another stage in life? my future plans? so many lumps n bumps n twists ahead..excitin yet frightenin at e same time..
alr so many of my frens have moved on to new stages too..jobs n relationships..happy for them..

doraemon is Time magazine's Asia's Top 22 Heroes

2007-09-09T02:09:00.000+08:00

http://www.time.com/time/asia/features/heroes/doraemon.html

ASIAN HEROES
TIME salutes the individuals who inspire us

The Cuddliest Hero in Asia
DORAEMON may be Japan's cutest export, says Pico Iyer, and his relentless optimism inspires a continent

You've seen him, even if you don't know his name. And if you've seen him, you've been warmed—even inspired—by his energized air of optimism. That bubble-headed creature with a broad smile, a paw raised in greeting and a disarming blueness beams down at us not only across Japan but on the streets of Hanoi, in courses at American colleges, in cinemas in Hong Kong (where he chatters away in Cantonese). Yes, he sells fireworks, adorns postage stamps, blinks as a cursor on Sony PCs and appears in movies about the Dorabian Nights. But more than that, he transmits a message that transcends every language: the future can be likable, the present is redeemable, and you can be happy even if you're blue.

For many years now the Japanese have given us all snazzy machines and elegant styles; their animE and manga designs are so globally compelling that the hip trans-Atlantic music group Gorillaz uses animE figures as virtual front men, and Disney's Lion King was said to have been inspired by the masterful cartoons of Osamu Tezuka. Athletes like Ichiro Suzuki and Hidetoshi Nakata are increasingly electrifying international sporting arenas with their blend of smooth craft and high efficiency. But none of Japan's cultural exports, it could be said, has the warmth, the companionable charm or the zany humanity of the 22nd century cat who has a gadget, if not quite an answer, for everything.

Doraemon lives in a world indistinguishable from our own: his weekly TV shows and annual movies have him inhabiting a typical street in a typical Japanese (and therefore quasi-Western) neighborhood. His best friend, Nobita (the name means knocked down), is a classically helpless, bespectacled fourth-grader who is always being bullied by classmates and shouted at by mother or teacher. Like any good buddy, Doraemon accompanies his pal to baseball practice, sits by his side as he wrestles with his homework and tries to protect him from evil-eyed Suneo and the lumbering Gian. Unlike most best friends however, Doraemon sleeps (as Nobita lays down his futon on the floor) in a closet. His time machine is, well, to be honest, in a desk.

Like the most immortal of such characters, in short—one thinks of Snoopy or Paddington Bear—Doraemon comes with a personality and a history. He weighs 129.3 kg, his height is 129.3 cm and his birthday is Sept. 3, 2112. He has a favorite food (dorayaki—sweet bean paste sandwiched between two small pancakes) and a little sister, Dorami, who is yellow and has ears and long eyelashes (a cousin, perhaps, of Hello Kitty). While Japan's idoru, or mass-produced pop stars, often seem as generic as machines, the country's animated characters, like Doraemon, have the bigheaded individuality of real rebels.

Part of Doraemon's particular appeal though, is that, like Hanna-Barbera's irresistible Top Cat and Yogi Bear, he is ready to take on every situation—and likely, somehow, to get it wrong. Each time Nobita is being afflicted, Doraemon will reach into the fourth-dimensional pocket in his stomach and pull out a takekoputa (flying device) or a dokodemo door, which allows them to go anywhere. But the two can only fly low over the suburban houses in the neighborhood, and the dokodemo door often takes them to the places they most wish to avoid. The reason Doraemon is blue, according to the most recent accounts, is that a robot mouse bit off his ears, and he was so rattled by his girlfriend's ensuing laughter that he turned a little turquoise. The suspicion persists, in fact, that in the realm of 22nd century cats, Doraemon is something of a Nobita.

There is a distinctly Japanese quality to all this, in the ingenuity of the Doraemonic gizmos (all portable), his determination to put a bright face on things and never to give up, and even in some of the little cat's idiosyncrasies (one of his machines allows him and Nobita to watch Shizuka-chan, the little girl who is the object of Nobita's affections, in the shower). At heart, Doraemon is profoundly human: it's the very essence of his charm that he has a girlfriend—a small cat called Mi-chan—but she always seems a little out of reach.

Indeed, Doraemon's crossover appeal may be best appreciated if you set him next to the other cartoon figure that Japan has long made ubiquitous. Hello Kitty seems to have no reason to exist other than to be cute. Utterly adorable, often clad in pink and entirely passive, she seems to represent what little Asian girls are told to be in public. Doraemon, by comparison, is as tubby and twinkling as a salaryman after one too many beers. Hello Kitty, after all, has no mouth and never moves; Doraemon seems often to be all mouth, and in every 30-minute episode of his show, is to be seen worried, chortling, goggle-eyed, at peace or pounding on the floor in frustration and then calmly dipping his paw into a bag of cookies.

Scholars of the form may place him in the distinguished line of Astro Boy, Osamu Tezuka's early-'60s creation, who had 100,000-horsepower hydraulics in his arms, searchlights in his wide eyes and a nuclear fission generator in his chest. While Godzilla and Gamera, for example, were nuclear age mutants who showed how science could turn on us, Doraemon (like Astro Boy) offers a more hopeful and benign version of technology. Others might liken his impact not just to that of PokEmon but to the Totoro of Hayao Miyazaki, the visionary animator-craftsman whose ravishing Hiroshige dusks and ecological parables are so commanding that Disney bought the U.S. rights to all his work. But, really, Doraemon belongs in a category of his own: not just a companion (like Winnie the Pooh) and not just an icon (like Mickey Mouse). While Bart Simpson says and does what all of us fear to do, Doraemon does what we dream of doing. As Donald George, the global travel editor of Lonely Planet Publications, says, following a video showing of Doraemon in Oakland, California: "He represents a wonderful combination of innocence and imagination—and you come away with that childlike feeling that anything really is possible. It's the same feeling I get when I travel."

The other part of the Doraemon legend that has made him an evergreen source of nostalgia in Japan for three decades now (or, in a country of fads, 300 fashion spin cycles) is the story behind the story. Most of the country knows the heart-tugging tale of Hiroshi Fujimoto, who created Doraemon in comic-book form in 1969 and then recruited his old elementary school classmate Abiko Moto to work with him (when Fujimoto died, in 1999, it was front page news). And Nobuyo Oyama, who gives Doraemon his voice, is such an institution that she regularly appears on Japanese TV as a performer in her own right. As Japan transforms itself weekly to try to find its place in the modern world, Doraemon is one of the few constants who can bring a grandma in a kimono and a yellow-haired teenager together; so far, he's outlasted 17 Prime Ministers.

Does that make him a hero, you might ask? A hero, in Joseph Campbell's formulation, is an archetypal figure who leaves home, overcomes obstacles and in some way speaks to the universal feeling inside us that we can do more than we are doing and become better versions of ourselves. By that criterion, the sometimes blundering but always triumphant cat with the irrepressible gleam in his eye more than qualifies. He takes the very condition that we associate with melancholy—being blue—and makes it smile.

Pico Iyer, whose most recent book is The Global Soul, is a contributor to TIME. He lives in Nara, Japan

more edin pics

2007-06-27T23:57:00.000+08:00

bed b bfast!

climbin Aurthers seat!

loch ness!

highlands

highland cow! v cute!!

queen's view! am i e queen? hehe

photos

2007-06-26T02:27:00.000+08:00

haggis!not v nice

hog bun.look at e roast hog bhind! in edin.

back to reality

2007-06-26T00:41:00.000+08:00

sigh. wat a drag back to reality..dunno if it's a gd or bad thing tt my 1st posting is 'study leave'..where got pple start sch w study leave?i'll juz nuah my time away lor. n my bro bought bad quality huayang dvd back, so i'm pretty glued to it.
ok a bit abt my holiday..

london-
watched a musical called Wicked! abt e 'untold' story of e witches of wizard of oz. i like wizard of ox and i'm v familiar w e original,so i can follow q easily. it's supposed to be pretty gd but i find e plot a tad awkward at times,when they anyhow try to stuff in characters to flow w e original.but i like e atmosphere.e theatre is really small, n u can see e stage q clearly.unlike e giant theatres in sg. i wld have liked to watch phantom too, too bad no time.i like e phantom songs alot!
went to all e usual tourist places, incl harrods. got stuck at e foodhall marvelling at all e food! haha nv go any other sections at all! ha!! i bought 3 types of ham, and smoked salmon roll (which is value for $ with giant pieces,unlike those u eat in sg. i gobbled it up on my flight back n din bother e stewardess for snacks), and deep fried white bait.

france-paris
i dun understand y pple say paris is a real romantic place.i dun find it so.e pple are not nice at all, e place is dirty. e best redeeming feature is e boulongerie.. not lingerie ha. they sell all e pastries n buns n they're my staple. yum yum.i really enjoy lookin at e works of art, n take in e smell too!i ate so many crossiants,quiche n dunno wat. eiffel was nice though. esp at midnite when theres a light up. sth like hari raya lights on a giant inverted ice cream cone.tt's e most romantic part i think.we went to alot of museums.i cant appreciate picasso at all. but i like van gouh. subsequently on our 1 day tour of provence we passed e mental hospital he once stayed! cool rgt, n saw how a few of his pictures really match e view of e surroundings.
lourve museum is nice. d'orsay is not bad too. versielle palace was impressive.n i like notre dame's view.
i ate a few gd meals.got escargot, lamb shank, creme brulee.

france-provence
i like provence alot.it's a pity i din get to spend a longer time in e market.i wld have bought alot of cherries n food! i think i ate abt 1.5kg of cherries in e 2 wks. cheap n gd over there! e olive is e best i've eaten. n e view is great, e water n air clean. e hillsides look like broccoli, dark green n in clumps..so nice! e villages r interesting too. i dun mind spending a wk there.
ate lower class boulabaise.sth like fish soup but w lots of bones.din q like it. but i like my starter of raw salmon.lots of raw salmon! yum!
Nice-Nice was nice.haha.n monaco is so high class!took a foto w a real limousine..i can almost smell e smell of $ in e air lor.haha! cannes was nice too, but too bad we cldnt enter e private beaches n pose like Mr Bean.heh.

italy-venice
i like venice! so cute! i really like e bus-boat rides. foodwise, i hated e chi food we had.but i really liked my pizza.my 1st in italy n it was really nice!i like spicy salami, n e crust was so thin n e pc was so loaded w cheese n tomato i cant hold it straight! w a nice box to go summore.i din mind lookin like an idiot standin in e middle of e streets chewing it away awkwardly.n e dough is so chewy!nice!!
it's q interestin lookin at e bridges, n gondolas..

italy-florence
pisa was real ex.it's juz a tiny awkward slanted mistake of a blding which bcame real famous.q cute la.n i ate pizza in front of pisa! how cool is tt man! i've always talked abt it as a corny thing,but i really did it! ha! i liked e gelato near our dinner place too. fantastic fondette dark choco!it's e best best gelato i've eaten.too bad we din get to go again e next day.i'm hopelessly addicted to gelato man. i can eat 4 scoops a day, for a few days in a row..gosh..while others were takin fotos i wld b slippin off to have a rendevous w some gelato..haha!

italy-rome
thankfully our hotel in rome was q decent.clean,bright,w internet n bread for bfast!i'm really q impressed w e street artists there..wat nice paintings!esp this man who oil paint on canvass n frame it in glass near e uffizzi..he looked so absorbed in his craft n it's so nice! ate q a few restaurants there too.. generally i found e italians q loud.bird shld have a shouting contest w them man..she'll meet her match!

in all, i ate q alot of interesting things..cherries incl white cherries, blackberries,blueberries. rabbits (2 times), lots of diff ham on bones, salami.. so q happy =)

5th and last wk in edin

2007-05-30T23:12:00.000+08:00

oni 2 days more in edin. wat a beautiful place! so enid blyton-like, with cute cottages, fire places, cobblestones(thou it's bad for e luggages and feet) nice greens and flowers, and picturesque scenery. it's got a gd blend of city, history, and nature. with seas, highlands, castles and hills. but it's really really cold. thank God i bought a cheap n gd coat here.

i've been to most of e places i want to go. now gotta catch up on write up. bleah. i actu like thinkin abt my experiences.but putting in words can be tough, given my very limited lang capabilities. oh n my prof is retiring too. tmr is his last day.today i went for his last ward round, which is e 1st time i'm gg for his. ha. so he's leaving a day earlier than me. he is a very nice person. but i din follow him at all during e 5 wks. it wasnt easy wandering ard all by urself. esp in e 1st wk when i'm alone. subsequently e others r freq too busy for lunch either, so i'm really left alone by myself most of e time. thankfully e drs here are generally q frenly. n e men here r real gentlemanly. i dunno abt young guys cos most of e time i'm w elderly folk. hee. but e consulants n mos, hos are always happy to hold e door, to lead u in, to guide u somewhere. it's their culture i think.

i learnt some stuff abt stroke. but otherwise, most of the things i've seen or learnt wont b useful for exams. but i agree w the saying 'nothing learnt is ever wasted'.. i learnt abt fecal inconti today. abt alt codeine and enemas to control timing of passing motion. yest i was at a 100-yr old small long stay hosp aka hospice. sat in for e 1st time a dr-relative discussion, where e relative cried. i really din noe how to react.but e dr was so nice n assuring to e pt. he later told me tt such skills can be learnt.to me, i was like watchin a model video on patient communication.later in e car i asked him if he found caring of e elderly rewarding. he seemed abit taken aback at 1st, thou i tot he shld b sick of such qns alr. he said q alot, but e conclusion is yes. i think most geri consultants r nice. else they wont want to work w e frail elderly. when pple ask me wat my career plans r, i always reply a non-commital 'i'm exploring' kinda ans. i can tell tt i really dun like commitment.
but will working in sg b v diff? hospital env in sg is real tiring, w such a long list it's not possible to spend alot of time w e pt. n geri is particularly tedious in terms of history taking, cos it's not juz e acute illness we're interested in.being such an inpatient person, can i tahan e work? i'll give myself some time n space to find out.

2007-05-24T21:08:00.000+08:00

bed n bfast place. £24/nite

shoppin at glasgow.i really bought ALOT.

deep fried haggis. ok la.i think it's nicer than oven baked

dinner at home.lots of washing ..

4th wk

2007-05-24T20:37:00.000+08:00

wow it seems juz yest tt i had e hotdog bun frm crystal jade cakery at changi but it's now e 4th wk!
last wkend we rented a car to drive ard. wanted to go loch lomond but had change of plans to drive ard e coastal regions, on advice of ht's uncle. wa really spontaneous man. fri at 430pm we were frantically tryin to call to find some car rental companies, cos everything shuts down at 5pm here.in e end we got a kia cerato 1.5L frm arnold clarks, costing £60 for 2 days. all e auto cars ran out and we had to get a manual. thankfully huili drvies manual back home, so she really q poor thing gotta drive almost 500 miles! e insurance cost £20, n e person said sth like we can crash e car anyhow we like if we get e insurance.ha, but huili was a safe driver, n yq n ht were extremely helpful to navigate.as usual, parasite-blurlinda had nothing better to do but to eat n burp n sing crappy songs to keep our driver awake.i think i croaked e most thruout e trip. but foodwise, cheese was better prepared than i am!
n on sat, while they went to buy maps 1st, i went w clara to e sat market.ate a hog roll at £3.50. they had a pig, sth like our roast pig on e table n they slice it to put into a burger bun which they call 'roll'. w a slice of crispy pig skin n some kind of apple sauce. v nice! but it was so windy e top flap of my burger flew off! oh man.. althou it was a pretty small market, it was interestin to see them sellin their produce..cheese, meat,jam, honey, soap. their porridge stall is like oatmeal w cinnamon kinda flavor..i prefer century egg porridge. a stall owner was grating potato to deep fry.but i prefer jack n jill. not jack n jane.heh. too bad we were gg on a road trip,else i wld buy e raw meat to go cook.

anw, so we left. we went to a distillery, Queen's view w very nice scenery, and stopped at aviemore then carbridge to look for BnB-bed n bfast. e drive was v enjoyable for me.saw vast fields, dotted w cows,sheep,horses n even pigs! e sheep were really like cotton wool on e greens.seeing animals relly lift me up.n i had such craving for lamb chop! then we stopped by a lake, n got 2 horses near it! within fences of cos. they galloped towards me! cos they tot i got food i think.they were so close i cld really look into their eyes..but sadly they think i kenna cheat them n they left, not to return again to respond to our calls. later on we saw a rainbow too! we all went mad i think.it's q high.

BnB--3 of us shared a double bed.every inch u move will hit another person.thankfully we're all pretty small sized. bfast was egg,bacon,sausage! n we supplement w lots of cereals.e austrian couple sitting opp us muz think we're pigs.they shared 1 portion lor.oh gdness.i wanted to tell e lady to get one to give me!
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yest i went art gallery.free admission yay! i noe nothing abt styles n strokes n wat not, but there is a certain type of oil on canvass paintin tt i like.i like those of green fields n flowers n blue skies, where they merge all e colors w lots of blending n get fuzzy fuzzy pictures w no clear outline.n oil paintings have some texture too i think.it's really interesting how they can blend to achieve e effects.n e staff were so extremely helpful. pple here are generally nice. nobody pretends to sleep on e bus when an elderly gets on; u enter e mo room n e consultant stops to shake hand n introduce himself, few pple pretend not to notice u. n pple say thank u to bus drivers. sadly some classmates n a few drs do act as if i'm transparent.i guess e culture barrier is really hard to breakthru some times. wat w an accent really diff. juz like how sgreans react to other nationalities sometimes as well. n i realised e angmohs like to ask how r u, but they do not realy require a real ans.n every1 will reply gd, or fine thankew. it's really like wat they teach in english courses i think.it's a greeting.in sg, if u ask, pple muz say how busy they r to show they're useful.nobody will say fine thankew.but tt doesnt mean e angmohs r hypocrites. being polite is nothing wrong.in any case, i like all my HOs so far.1 was frm brunei! i almost asked her abt wu zun.ha!

all except e yucky Mr D. none of us can stand him.yucks yucks yucks.

this wkend is our last one in edin.muz go see e castle, n aurther's seat.i muz sit there to take a pic..e girls r realy trigger happy.i hope we have time to see everything.
i tried 2 types of haggis.deep fried, n McSween, e most popular brand ard,but it's not nice i think.also tried rhubarb dessert.prof n his wife treated us! so nice of them.n i think e wife n son are v gd lookin.ha! they brought us to dinner n i had braised rabbit.yum, every1 was intrigued n wanted a pc of it. =)

3rd wk

2007-05-17T23:19:00.000+08:00

time flies. now is e 3rd wk liao. shifted, yet again, to an apt at blair st. supposedly for 6. but i felt sooo kenna cheated when we juz went in. e beds r so terribly small! n e place dirtier n colder than e prev one, although it is much bigger, n more convenient. so u win some n lose some.n e guy is so FON. we all rolled eyes.
'is there any dishwasher?' 'oh yes, see this green apple detergent? juz get 1 of u and it's done! makes ur hands softer u noe?'.
'is there a heater in e living room?' 'oh e office below will heat u up juz nice.'
'oh dun worry abt e 150euros deposit, it's juz pocket $'
'is ur luggage heavy? tt's ok, trains ur muscles'
wat e @~#!`*%^£&"!¬£^(

oh to date, i think i've spent £250. i almost fainted when i realised. not incl e plane n train n accomodation. *faint double*
i spend double compared to others on groceries, n e fridge is spillin food out liao i think.is it rebound frm e 1st wk's cold n hunger? n i'm e oni one eating supper everynite. contrary to all ur worries, aft i shifted, i actu eat really gd food. abt SGD$6 per dinner. canned oxtail soup with 250g of mince beef added, n 6 white fresh button mushrooms. n yogurt n bread n nutella n milk n muesli bar or wateva i can get hold of for supper.i'm q surprised i can polish off 500g of mince beef by myself in 2 meals..

n we went glasgow on sunday. n i went shopping!! oh my, everyone fainted at how much i bought. i'm e da ying jia lor. got bag,tops, shoes, coat, food, sourvenir.. n i ate deep fried haggis (stuffed lamb intestine) and fresh boiled mussels! yum i really like e mussels.roadstall but cost £1.20. small cup like cup corn. abit ex but i really like.oh n strawberries too.
but they're really q cheap. bag £4. tops £1.50, £2. shoes £7. coat £3.50!!!!!!!! cos now 'summer' so clearance.though it's freezing. madness. e strawberries were so ripe 1 more day n they wld rot i think. so 2 punnets for £1.but w my stomach big as e univerese, it's less than chicken feet for me.
at least i cook myself lor.if eat out this kind of liao, i sure end up washin dishes.ha.

if everything goes well, this wkend we'll go loch lomond. but so many things to plan.will see how.

oh n i went to a few ulu hosp. liberton n astley ainslie.had alot of difficulty pronouncing e 2nd one. their rehab team is really q strong. n they channel alot of patient care to comm hospitals, sth like our amk or st luke's. so their hospitals wont b so full. seems like a gd plan, but bcos healthcare if free, it's kinda abused n not too efficient either. so 1 bad cancels 1 gd point.anw i'm so proud of myself for finding my way ard. dun u love bus passes?n edin's really q organised.so i'm q thankful.

okie, till next wk.

2nd wk

2007-05-08T23:51:00.000+08:00

shifted to new hse.now w e 3 girls ard, more lively n talk more each day!
n cookin dinner too. 1st day was a mess.but now got more exp liao ha.i hope my wk in e stroke ward will get better.n next wk too.

it's terrific to have a heater at home! jiaklat e prev wk almost froze to death. n bus passes are fantastic too. no more walkin!!yay!!

okie shall write again when shift to new place..
btw i book tour to loch ness liao.hee

end of 1st wk

2007-05-04T23:41:00.000+08:00

so now my 1st wk had ended..was it worth it to come a wk earlier? i guess so. althou i saw v v v v few pts, n it was inconvenient to come alone, it's actu q gd. i noe more pple out of my circle, n i can bring e girls ard a little bit when they come. n i went to a hospice. n actu a short period of being alone is gd. u can walk ard at ur own pace, think a little bit, take pictures of flowers (others will b bored waiting for me)

tmr i'll see chese they all. shiftin hse! i hope my luggage dun gimme prob. ok i v hungry go eat maggi mee..

in edin now

2007-05-02T00:33:00.000+08:00

cold like mad. yest started my 1st day to sch. walked 2.1 miles 40min to sch. faint man!
met e prof. 1st few things he said to me was actu abt report! he asked me whether i tot abt wat theme i wanna write abt. i so gan jiong hurry up say nus got standard format abt new exp. he say liddat not interestin for e reader. jiaklat lor. he's e reader wat. then wat. n e hosp oni got 3 students in e dept.their student patient ratio super gd. so he say i have alot of opportunity to clerk. muz make gd use. sweat... but he's q nice. his wife is sooo pretty. like a doll, like a celebrity. v graceful classy warm n kind look. she shook my hand n smile so sweetly i almost melted. oh no...then i was juz starin at her dunno wat to say. actu i wanted to say 'u're v pretty can i touch ur hair?' but of cos i dun dare. haha. then e best part is, they sawy wanna treat clara n me to dinner next wed! wow! i think tt'll b my best meal here lor! so excited! hey clara u pai wo last time not bad rgt. last time u met him w me, now u got free dinner! yay!!

got some nice asian students in class. hk n msia. e msia girl really v helpful. i keep taggin her until i feel paiseh. e hk guy also see me poor thing came over to show me some of their facilities. when clara u come i got gd stuff to show u. i oso figure out e lockers. e admin pple nv really take care of u alot. u muz figure out stuff urself n ask.

but i feel e ang moh dun understand me n i cant understand them.despite me watchin so many ang moh show on e plane to gear myself. if they tok slowly i can. today got a ang moh girl sit bside me.cos e class full liao got no where else to sit. so sad rgt. but she's q nice got tok to me. u can feel e diff one. juz like in sg, sometimes some hip cool funky pple forced to sit w u, they oso dun wanna tok to u or look at u or b a/w u. so same for ang moh. some r nice some cant b bothered. but i muz say i met q a few helpful pple so far.

yest nite i went to hilltop got some fire festival to welcome summer. madness! 4deg, cold like mad. wat summer. i almost died. i wore so much i was like ba chang. yet i was cold like ice cube. i really wore alot alot. gloves scarfs everything. bsides illinois, this was e coldest liao. i think alot of cultures r essentialy q e same. cos humans r humans. we have similar needs n similar ways to express.in dance, drums, skits, costumes.

these 2 days dinner = mee. bfast n lunch = bakwa bread. i also supplement w canned soup. yest i drank milo. today ate uncle toby too, wa i love toby n milo..aft all e same food. gd thing i'm q a junkie, likes my mee. i still like them la. but i crave some meat..

oh n e class also heard my trademark sneeze. so cold my nose is givin me some trouble. they all turn n luff. actu y is my sneeze farni. tt's e oni way my saliva wont merlion out leh.

my chio room mate stole milk frm me. yum yum..till next time.

at london!

2007-04-29T02:38:00.000+08:00

arrived safely in london. using clara's bro laptop now. thank God for all e gd pple i met along e way.
1. a v nice ang moh who helped me carry my 19kg trolley up 2 long flight of stairs at e leicester sq tube station. he's so nice lor. e 2 flights of stairs are diff one. not connected. he helped e 1st, then i thanked him he walked on rgt, aft climbin e 2nd he suddenly rem, turned back and walked down again to help me!
2. another nice ang moh which helped me at goodge st tube. stairs 1st, then got lift. e lift is in a corner one. he showed me, n held it open n even shouted to me to hurry, cos aft e stairs he walked off, only to rem me again at e corner lift..aiya dunno how to say. then aft tt i still ask him to change coins w me to call ben.
3. another ang moh who saw me kena stuck at e faregate. it's really narrow lor. n my trolley cant go thru. e gate clipped me liao, then he pulled me n my trolley out. pull n drag, cos i tot too tiny of myself, tried to go thru n was so stuck i cldnt move either way.n he went away so fast i cldnt say thanks.
n they all ca lift my trolley w 1 hand. i jealous. i almost collapsed lor. e tube station at airport muz walk q a dist, w slopes. n my trolley almost pushed me down e slope. so girls, pls pls pack light..n i almost felt my shoulders were gonna dislocate, my clavicles fracture w my 7kg backpack. actu not tt heavy leh, but juz doesnt seem gd on my shoulders..

but once i got onto e tube i felt q excited. it's better than US subway, but q tiny. i think our mrts are better. i was lookin out of e window n saw all e cute little houses. w attics n windows n roofs so much like wat we see in story books. n e accent is really like british movies..like hugh grant.
i tried to prepare myself by watchin lots of movies on e plane liao.ha. music n lyrics i like e theme song. findin e way back to love or sth.

sq not as marvellous as i expected leh. cos got NO haagen daz and no nissin cup noodles. it's kings ice cream lor. i kept pressin e attn button so much e stewardess n stewards came by so many times i ate all e snacks there are. e ang moh couple bside me looked a bit jaelous..or is it amazed, cos i really eat non-stop. got cranbery apple bits v niice. harvest fields. those i see in ntuc always bu she de buy. got potato chips too. despite tt i got so hungry i ate my ma's hotdog bun. n all these are in addition to my 2 meals. cos ang moh time is nite time, so they dun serve alot of food. i muz try ask for more serious food on my return flight.
another special thing. i redeem thru krisflyer so i specify my meals as seafood meals. so-so oni la. but i get served 1st! by e time ei finish, my neighbors haven come yet. they loooked absolutely jealous n i bet they were starin at my food n wonderin y i keep gettin my food 1st. they were droolin! n they address me as ms lee always. haha. oni 1 word to describe--shuang!
juz like drinkin 5 bottles of yakult simultaneously in 1 string pack. hahhaha!!

e roads in london really q stony. i'm so thankful i got a gd trolley.i hope it last me thru. n yup, it's so durable i sat on it w my backpack in e tube. yay!

this is pit stop 1. tmr is another day of travelin. so thankful danielle gg to e train station to pick me. isnt it wonderful to have nice pple on grueling trips? n english spking countries are gd.. easy to orientate n find directions actu.even for dummies like me.
so i went to 2 U s alone...us n uk..no uganda next time thou. i think im q exciting rgt..

n studyin in ang moh countries really feels diff..feels v independent, n spontaneous, n adventurous, n alot of social stuff too. my bro tt time i felt so, but tt time alot of tw n chi pple. now seeing ben's frens also seems so fun. most of them r really smart n rich singaporeans. no wonder so many pple like to go for 6 mnths sep..
okie..i think i can adjust to jet lag extremely well. i nv got a prob adjusting at all! goes to show wat a nite owl i am..

i wonder how yx is at africa...

at changi..

2007-04-28T08:00:00.000+08:00

hey hye
at changi now. so scary!
my check in trolley is 19kg. my backpack is 7. juz nice.
it's free for me to recieve sms. so u can sms me yar? juz tt mayb i wont reply..

pray for me, that i'm alert and safe!

bel

b's massage shop at Serangoon

2007-03-26T23:43:00.000+08:00

check this out:

http://traditional-massage.com/indointro.html

it's his shop at serangoon gardens. u noe the pao xi chicken rice store with air-con? go down the row. right beside MTM (e custom-blend make up stuff who sponsored e superstar shows).
he said bcos u're my frens, can get 20% off!
the place is actu q nice. i fell asleep there before heehee, cos it's so quiet, tranquil n got those woody woody aroma oil smell.
go check it out n pamper urrself!

The corridor

another corridor

the room

the bathtub

tell ya frens abt it k!

post exams

2007-03-21T01:43:00.000+08:00

wa it's so long since i blog, i almost wondered if blogger wld shut me down.n now got new blogger summore!

O+G: actu i think O&G is very interesting. mayb cos i'm a female, so everything seems relevant to me haha. n as usual, everytime i learn sth new i think i have it too.haha. my only yi2 han4 is that my dsc clinic day had super few pts, and i din get to see e full spectrum of the services available. nonetheless, it was q nice talkin to ruth,junice,yanrong. btw these ang moh kia dun even noe basic chi songs like Ah Mei Ah Mei Ji Shi Ban Jia Zhuang! i was shocked n tried to sing other capital 95.8fm favorites but they also dunno!! *faint* but i dun think i'm from another generation rgt??
being a diabetic mom is really not easy man.if u follow strictly accding to e ODAC thinggy, ur whole diet becomes so mechanical, n u still gotta jab yourself so many times a day, and monitor too. no wonder they say moms are wei3 da4. i have alot of admiration for the compliant moms.i wonder if i wld have e discipline or sacrificial love to follow thru. then again, there are pple at e other end of e spectrum..
talking abt love, sometimes i wonder if we do use it too loosely. i heard tt in e jap lang, juz like in hebrew/greek there are many many diff words for diff type and degree of liking. when we use it so loosely in e Eng lang, do we sometimes lose e real touch of it?

exams:
3 wk holiday aka study break. i spent e 1st wk torn bet my bks n youtube.gosh, can u believe it, i watched 2 whole tw dramas, and many many hrs of variety shows during tt wk! if only i was tt zealous for my bks. i think i dev an allergy to txbks.i read EVERYTHING bsides it. i proved it to clara today by telling her lots of offer items on Toys R Us when we went to e vivo one. i can rem e items n e price so well lor. n tt's juz a mailer in my postbox! but i really really like Toys r us..
when i was in pri sch, i tot abt marryin e boss of it lor.haha!!

so as usual last min cramming began. i think i got q stressed in e last wk. my whole body system was topsy turvy. my sleep cycle was off, my hormones were off, my apetite was down.. but sth funny happened at home on Day 1 of exam. i guess such things only happen in my family.

my ma cooked mee suah for breakfast. as i started to eat, i tot i saw an ant on my fish maw. nvm, i cont eating, i like fish maw.mayb e poor ant juz fell in somewhere.e bacteria load surely not enuff to do anythin to me. as i ate, i saw another, and another, and another... at a gross scan, i think i can see 10. when i mix a bit, i saw it was diffusely infiltrated with ants. not too many, mayb a bit like a dash of sesame seeds.not wantin to give up my bfast, i took an ant out, hopin tt it wld turn out to be sth cao-ta mayb left in e pot frm yesterday or wat. but it got legs one. so i flicked it off, ate 1 last meatball n told my ma abt it. then i left. i heard later on tt my ma either din believe me, or tried to bluff my bro into eating e rest...gd thing he saw too ha.
so how? dinner at my place tonite? hahahahahah..worse than oscar's expired food..
pple have Brand's chicken essence during exams. i have ant-fortified mee suah. hahahaha!!

i love hols! time to indulge in youtube again..

oh, another tot tt came to my mind recently. my bro got a really nice, smart, pretty,hot, high EQ, viet gf (nus classmate) who can really cook fantastic viet food, esp compared to my usual anty meals. i look at her n look at myself. sometimes i wonder if b is blind..or is love really blind? then it muz have blinded him for 7 yrs..n for my selfish purpose, it better cont to blind him.. hehe.
Qn of e day (not letter of e day by cookie monster): if u were a person of e opp sex, wld u like urself?
my ans goes similar to a very worthy quote from E: 'i worry for e sanity of e man who likes me'

i'm a worrier

2007-01-27T23:26:00.000+08:00

I KNOW WHO HOLDS TOMORROW

I don't know about tomorrow
I just live from day to day
I don't borrow from it's sunshine
For it's skies may turn to gray.

Chorus:
Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand
But I know about tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand.

I don't worry o'er the future
For I know what Jesus said
And today I'll walk beside Him
For He knows what is ahead.

Ev'ry step is getting brighter
As the golden stairs I climb
Ev'ry burden's getting lighter
Ev'ry cloud is silver lined.

I don't know about tomorrow
It may bring me poverty
But the one who feeds the sparrow
Is the one who stands by me.

i delivered.i'm delivered

2007-01-27T23:04:00.000+08:00

did u noe i had a 1 in 49 chance of gettin Down's?

anw i finally did deliveries today. seeing it for e 1st time is quite fascinating actu. it made me not dislike kids as much. i esp love babies when they're still in e womb. haha. then aft e baby was born i was lookin at e baby for a long time, tryin to recall e steps to assessin a newborn's gest age n overall exam. so e nurse asked " you like babies alot hor?' then i said 'not really la, i dun like them. juz tt i need to noe how to assess them'. then she kinda looked horified..e same look when pple who dunno me well n tot tt i'm a sweet nice thing hear me scold sth for e 1st time gives me. haha. actu i kinda enjoy this surprised look. cant judge by e cover rgt. who says petite n quiet girls muz b nice. n i'm not purposely quiet.juz tt most of e time i'm too sian or tired or bored to tok much.

i shalll rem e 1st baby i saw thou. n today's too. cos e dad gave me a roche choco.haha.in celebration of e birth. hee.

epidural is a great invention..being a woman isn't easy man. i got a qn. why pple gg for sterilisation dun take out their womb as well? then no menses, no fear of cancer womb. can leave e ovaries n cervix behind la. true it may be a bit of a overkill, but if u've 5 kids n cant stand barrier methods or side effects of hormone pills, y not? ok, dun ask me if i wld remove my womb..

2007

2007-01-08T13:49:00.000+08:00

i created a post n it disappeared!
sigh so long nv blog then this happened. wasted. but nvm la..so this post shall b short n sweet.

enjoyed my short postings. think O n G is fun. thou i think i'm allergic to bks. haha.
oops. need to go for video liao..

post chalet

2006-10-19T01:11:00.000+08:00

BIRD: Back from Ah Mah's chalet. Super fun though we were super unhappening. We were supposed to go cycling and rollerblading etc, but ended up playing Game of Life in the chalet lah. That game made us happy, because we could go to college, get onto Dean's list, get a job, invent new stuff, win Nobel prize, buy a house, get married etc. The funniest thing is, when it was my turn to draw the career card, I picked the teacher one! Haha, maybe it's really all fated lah...I only posted 1 picture because the rest were quite, or rather, very unglam. Haha you should have seen us! Before we went to the place, Lunch, Oscar and I went NTUC to buy things for BBQ and we ended up with a lot of plastic bags! Plus I carried the Game of Life and cake lah! We had no hands to take out wallets or answer phone calls somemore. Looked so maid-like! Somemore when we were cutting cake, our faces were so dirty and oily from the BBQ lah! Though I constantly nagged at them to blot their faces before we took photos, but still... Anyway, luckily I was smart enough to stay far far away from the pit... in other words, I was slacking muahaha...But overall we had a lot of fun together. It's really nice to have such a cute bunch of girl friends to do silly things with, to giggle with, to laugh with... wah we kept giggling and laughing throughout the day... even when we were getting ready to sleep some of them were still giggling non-stop... don't know for what also...

LUNCH: went chalet at east coast on saturday and played both intellectual and non-intellectual games. i must say the intellectual games were really interesting and i think i'm really a mountain-turtle/tortoise not to have played them before. and because of the haze (yes itz not becos we were lazy/old/immobile), we didn't go out much and the furthest we went was the beach area which was less than 100 m from where the gate to the chalet was.
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thanks every1 for coming. i really enjoyed ya company. but on hindsight i shld have invited more uni pple on D2 la. shld hav invited my ex cg (now e 3 of them scolding me, no thanks to david) n other pple i miss but haven catch up w much. but i tot e place v small ma.muz thank cheese for being a great help doin e wings n bringin e skewers.

ok. so i'm really 22 *wails* shall seek comfort in my tv n chips.. can sch nv restart??

my bday

2006-10-13T23:29:00.000+08:00

to all the october babies... i played this song to myself at 12.10am to wish myself happy bday =)

The Birthday Song

Don't worry about that extra line
That's creeping up upon your face
It's just a part of nature's way to say you've grown a little more
Trees have rings and thicker branches
Kids shoes get a little tighter
Every year we're getting closer to who we're gonna be
It's time to celebrate the story of how you've come to be

*Happy Birthday, my friend
Here's to all the years we've shared together
All the fun we've had
You're such a blessing
Such a joy in my life
May the good Lord bless you
And may all your dreams come true

So light a candle on your cake
For every smile you've helped create
For every heart and every soul you've helped to grow
A little more
A few more pounds, a little more grey
Don't count the years, just count the way
It takes a little time to go from water into wine
Don't ever lose the wonder of that child within your eyes~

i got some tots aft hearing e part 'everyday we're gettin closer to who we wanna be'. i suddenly realised i haven been really gettin closer to who i wanted to be when i was in my teens. i grew alot in my teens, physically,mentally, emotionally, spiritually, but for e last few yrs i've been actu v stagnant, so much so tt i'm a little shocked to realise i'm actu 22. i still feel i'm 15. true, along e way i've mellowed my temper, matured a little, grown more secure and more assured, but i'm still not ready for e responsibilities of adulthood. n in return i think i've lost a lot of idealism and courage and zeal and passion i used to have. is it e brashness of teenage, or e lack of awareness of sequelae explainin e pseudo courage i used to have, or is it child like faith and e irrational 'can-do' which thankfully turned out fine?
haha seems like i'm really a bit slower than others in all things. this kinda comin to age kind of tots occur usu at 21 bdays, not 22 rgt. juz like 21st chalet but mine is 22nd bday.haha.

i think it's time to do some stretchin exercises and get some break through. but i dun wanna lose e childlike wonder in my eyes.

reformed

2006-09-15T19:51:00.000+08:00

i really changed over e last 1/2 yr! i'm eatin a lot more veg than bef, makin it a pt to BO at least every other day. so those who say i sure kenna colon cancer can take back their words liao. mayb it's a sign of aging, over e last 1/2 yr i got loss of appetite, n i'm eatin much less than bef. (so wat i'm still a star at buffets, n i'm sad this sat's buffet is off)

sgh ortho is over.movin to cgh.gonna miss e cute n nice hand surg reg.haha ah ma also got crush! he call me by name n rem i followed him for nite duty! n he's nice to pts too.haha. mayb i got delayed development.all e things teens do now then i do.haha

went for this young pap propaganda thing some wks back.bird went for e cute mps, i went for e cute president, n sumptous food, or so i tot. food was ~ but i agree w bird got cute mps.haha! one of them came over tok to us why we interested in politics now. Ans: actu i'm not really interested la.n prevly i'm too young to understand wat's gg on(eg rise in fares which is affecting me NOW).i bet bird's ans wld be 'actu i'm interested in u!' hahaha.

as i grow older, bdays become a time of gd catchin up w old frens.E asked me y i like to go out w frens.i tot e ans was obvious.time spent bondin w frens r fun.juz yakkin abt nonsense n bird's marriage plans can b enjoyable. more so if e activities we do r fun, eg eating yum yum, or playin games like Ugly Ugly Ugly aka jb jb jb. muz thank anin for always openin up her nice hse! i still wanna play hide n seek in her hse!!i'm sure it'll b fun. n sorry for dirtyin her place =( mayb a simpler get-together juz order pizza n play games will b less stressful
n oscar!haha.i muz specify e orange pencil case isnt a bday present but a no-reason one else u all say i cheapo (thou i am.haha) next time we muz explore e happenin marina more!

nowadays e mind ur body issues got a section on marriages.actu e more i read e more scared i get.it's really not easy to live with another person.n e new roles to take on, wife, daughter-in-law, mother.e tot of it gimme headache.n marriage is such a big commitment. in sickness n health, in plenty n want. it really means alot. seein e chronic, debilitating sick in hospital gimme alot of tots sometimes.how much e parents muz go thru if e child has CP,duchenne,or down's.how much e children muz do for their stroke out parents.am i ready to commit to love in such sickness n want? by grace God will not test me beyond what i can take, but i muz build e mentality. love is a commitment, esp aft e initial honeymoon period. but i believe in simple everyday romances.aftall, i am a simple and easily contented person.
was tokin to some1 with downs kid some wks back.she's pretty worried abt wat's gonna happen to him when they e parents r not ard.i think it's not reliable or fair to have more kids n expect them to care for him.if they do,it's a bonus.if they dun, we cant blame them. it's also thru e conversation i realise y so many letters r written into e forum to ask for more disabled frenly facilities, n to cater for kids w special needs.it's really a heartache n headache to plan for ya kids future.despite wat i study abt e community services available, it's always inadequate in real life, n over glam in paper. juz like how we need to Q for ages to get into e early intervention schs, so even hosp recommend u go private n get ya own.
but for tt is said, man propose, God dispose. so much is beyond our control n understanding...

lala

2006-08-18T17:38:00.000+08:00

recently i learnt a lesson. only when somebody does it on u, wld u then realise ya mistake. it's like watchin a show but now roles have switched.
when somebody says sth not flattering at all in a jokin manner repeatedly to u, wat does it mean? does e person think tt he's ya gd fren so it's a sign of frenship? or does he think u're fun to make fun of, esp since all along u din seem to mind too much? i realise sometimes i do tt too. n mayb e person wont feel gd.
it's fine tt gd frens make fun of each other, like how e girls always say i auntie nv revamp, n how we say ah bird is so noisy she drives us deaf. but such privilege is entitled to close frens. so how close is close? scarly e feelin isn't mutual. so to err on e safe side, always take a wait n see approach.if e fren jokes to u, u can joke back.otherwise,dont.esp for such an eq retard like me, i may not noe when i'm steppin on e toes of someone.

fam med is over.actu bein a gd GP can really b a blessin to e community. but it's not easy to be one, n most aren't. is tt e path for me? dunno. but i do think geriatric med is quite interesting. but i'm not patient, cant spk dialects, n i'm not v caring either. in any case, i think care for e chronic, debilitating sick is impt. mayb GLG wld b happy to hear this. thou i hate doin e write ups.

this wkend is for myself n friends. gg to cramp 1 tvb serial in too.heh.

gd n bad

2006-08-02T14:20:00.000+08:00

most pple arent wat they appear to be. e apparently meek n timid can have alot of fire in them, juz tt others dunno. e sweet n nice can actu b quite scheming, juz tt nobody noes. sometimes, only time can tell. e irritating full of nonsense and stingy person can actu be a real sweet person. which is better, some1 who say he'll go to e fields n remove e weeds but nv really do so, OR e guy who says he's too lazy to do it but will eventually do it? aft arguements w my ma, i'll freq not do wat she wants me to do, but eventually somehow do it quietly. mayb tt's my asian way of making peace without appearin to come down.ha!

i forgot who, but somebody once told me, with time, u'll either love e person more or hate e person.i partially agree but tt doesnt mean they're bad pple,who u shld shun. i mean every1 has got their own strengths n weaknesses. n we cant simply classify them to gd or bad. e best person on earth wld have done sth horrible. e worse person wld have some soft, redeemin points. i always think men who love their wife n kids cant b too bad, even if they're gangsters in real life. juz like e yellow ribbon proj, we shld always give others a chance rgt. IMH got 1 lect when e person mentioned tt it's a kind of personality disorder when one can only classify others as Gd or Bad. e Gd is nv capable of doin bad, while e Bad can nv do gd. such pple go berserk when their Gd does sth bad, cos they cant reconcile their expectations n reality. when e Bad does sth gd, they'll dismiss it, so e Bad will nv get redeemed. to a certain extent, juz like any other personality spectrum, every1 has a bit of tt characteristic. we're all judgemental. after all, if u cant b faithful in small matters, nobody will think u're capable of being faithful in large matters.

so, be realistic. dun have too impossible expectations, n be more forgiving. life will be easier, n u'll be able to appreciate others more. this is a lesson for myself.

funny blog

2006-07-26T10:55:00.000+08:00

http://www.kennysia.com/archives/2006/07/i_am_hairy.php

new skin

2006-07-24T13:50:00.000+08:00

due to feedback tt my blog was really too hard to read, i've decided to ditch my doraemon for a much simpler skin.
revamp! n juz in case u dunno, i got new specs! thou i actu prefer e older pair cos it's more comfy. i shall not buy plastic frames next time. cant help it tt my nose bridge is flat rgt?

bday presents

2006-07-23T22:49:00.000+08:00

oct is juz 2.5months away! n i tot of all i want for bday liao.

b: specs
LT gang: swatch
bros: casio
bs grp: clinics bag

any additional budget: lady like tops

i think i really do need watches. n my presnt bag now is way too big n too few compartments. gotta dig like mad to find stuff. n noeing how messy i am, it's really like finding a needle in a hay stack.so i need a a4 size bag with as many compartments as possible.

okie dokie.yay! end of emed posting. fun. but not e kind of lifestyle i want. n i got peter manning's autograph on my bk! haha got it aft e viva test, which i totally screwed up. he was kind n nice but i juz cannot make it. dunno y my mind juz went blank n started stuttering a little. heck. does any1 noe wat compulsory pass means? hopefully they'll hyperinflate ward assessments so can pass la. haha.

little acts

2006-06-16T08:46:00.000+08:00

waiting for pple to come to play captain ball.in sch lib now.they changed all e comp! yay!! now super fast n nice. =)

this last wk several kind little acts touched my day. i'm a person who appreciates simple little acts.no need to be fanciful. only if u're faithful in small then can be faithful in larger matters rgt.

got this lab auntie who offered me mentos, thou we're not supposed to eat in lab.n she helped me open up e drinks for e jc kids.b4 i left i thanked her too.
got this really sweet yjc gal.always saying thank you n even bows a little wo! v seldom do students bow nowadays.i like to bow too.think it's a gd sign of respect.then she's so cute.aft e session every1 left e lab liao then suddenly she come rushin back in, lookin v apologetic, n said she forgot to tuck her chair under e table so promptly did so. wa piang! where got pple so guai1 one?
got dis lect tt forgot abt e lect.n his is e 1st in morn.thou i'm a little bit bu shuang, but it's not totally his fault cos e organisers shld send out reminder emails.anw he's so late he messed up e mornin lect.when i walked up to him to say i'll intro him, he quickly apologise.n aft e lect while e students were gettin back their forms in e busy counter, he came up to thank me summore.thou i cldnt understand his pronunciation much, i quite appreciate his act.i think how u deal with unimpt pple, in dis case me, spks volumes.but i muz admit most of e time i'm quite unfrenly n belongs to e act dao type.haha

ok movin to nonsense stuff, oh man i think i'm e biggest chee go mak in e world.i din noe j1 boys can b so cute too.haha.no wonder ah bird last time almost wanted to tell her student "i think u're cuter" when e student tease her abt another male relief tcher.n ah bird, e boy is frm e same jc u taught!hahaha. so now, i like hot babes, sweetie pies, older men, n now ginnahs 5 yr my junior! gosh...

wat kind of guys do girls like?
i think i'll like to add generous to my original dependable criteria. generous doesnt mean muz b $. i refer to xin xiong kuan da.not too petty or calculative. we had some troublesome bulky stuff to bring back frm lab to dean's off.i called b ask him to fetch me home but nv told him abt e load.when i went to e carpark he was pseudo sleepin in car then i juz knock on e window n pointed to e stuff bhind.i din say anything else n he came out n helped load e stuff n drove to sci.aft wards he talked to me as if nothing had happened. if i were him, i wld probably have qned a bit, n i wld prefer to have some acknowlegement or prior notice but he juz cont talkin to me as normal.n he tapao n hid 2 lor mai kai under my seat to gimme a small surprise!
dis doesnt sound v romantic or wat,but it's such little acts tt separates men frm boys. or am i too easily contented? doesnt matter la.isn't it wise to simplify things? i dun understand y pple like to make things cheemer than they already are. to suit their ego?

another idea of e wk: if u've got nothing better to say, shut up.dun b too big mouthed.i muz remind myself.

blah blah

2006-06-09T22:57:00.000+08:00

cheese said she's got a "Ask Me for directions" face. i think i have a "Auntie, tok to me face". i find it so easy to strike up conversations with aunties on buses,mrts, ntucs.dunno y either. this wk i spent $40 at ntuc.haha.n i'm not even a hw.i bought 5 toothbrushes n 2 tubes toothpaste cos colgate got offer.n a nice choco fudge swiss roll.in name for my bro's bday.haha.tried bef at cheese's bday.v nice.and i haven change my toothbrush for ages.and revamp shld start frm within rgt.so i also ate vegetarain for lunch twice dis wk! i really need e fiber for erm-erm reasons.haha.actu i dun hate veg la.some r q ok.heh. anw i'm gettin distracted.
as i was sayin, e auntie bhind me in Q at ntuc started askin me abt all e stuff i bought. wen4 dong1 wen4 xi1.i think she somehow thinks i noe how to buy gd offer stuff.haha.

art. all 4 of us siblings attended art lessons in CC for 2 yrs.but we always get C- still.recently i went turf city n read an interestin drawin bk at e kids store there.hey e bk was v cheem lor.they tot how to draw n color animals, incl shadow effects.so i dug up a small blank notebk, took out my big box of color pencils n started drawing.(btw i finally got my own big box of colorpencils recently! wat pleasure sharpenin all 60 colors!not those short n missin hand me down pencils,mind u. yay!i so used to "gian" those pseudo suitcase of poster colors n pencils they use to bring in pri sch leh..) v ugly e drawings but i like alot! i think actu drawin is therapeutic for me.just like cuttin nails.v stress relievin n enjoyable.mayb tt's y alot of pple w/ special needs or even prisoners now paints..

mangosteens... i have a love-hate r/s w them.they're actu my fav fruit cos they're a nice white, sweet soft.but they're freqly ants infested.today i 'peeled' one but 1/2 way lots of ants juz scurried out frm nowhere.n a white dot with furry edges started crawlin abt.i wonder if e other ones i ate got them anot.opps.

adrain yeo..sigh.wat to do.mayb he shld hav sought psych help after he failed mbbs.thou i really feel uncomfy w cnb but it's true he's got a prob la.n somehow in this line there's certain deg of moral obligations involved.but seein e drug users in hosp wont cause him to wanna kick it meh.sigh.if he hadnt been caught so fast, wld he have woken up frm his idea?$466000 is a big sum to pay back too!! but anothe weird case is e insurance agent who got an ecstasy pill for client in attempt to win a big policy.how many pple can withstand e temptation?wld she hav done it if e client nv tempted her time n again?6 yrs jail...aiya..

holiday plans..pls jio me out next wk wkday nites.bside wed.i'll b in nus till 5pm liddat.i wanna shop, roller blade.. got company i can go blade more oft too.

blah blah

2006-05-28T22:31:00.000+08:00

oscar: haha as ah mah my friend said, stop trying to act cultured. we went to a “high class” cd shop that day, with dim lighting and wooden raised floorboards n such (u get the idea). Then ah mah started to ask for Bach cds. The rather cute attendant soon realized we were less than cultured people though…in the end we were busy trying to tell whether “Bach for Kids collection” was played by kids…but heck, as long as it sounds good. what for force yourself to listen to something u dont understand, or fall asleep watching boring arthouse films? in the end ah mah n me realized we only recognized the classical tunes that play during the sad scenes in tvb series! not to forget those that play in ntuc, while we shop for groceries like aunties.

bird: Today the girls had lunch together. Long long time since I saw some of them... ok Ah Mah wore something very nice (for the first time lah) so we just had to take a photo together right? Hehe good good, at least she's making the effort to revamp her wardrobe... haha...

haha e 2 of us felt like fish out of water in tt high class shop. e cute attendant not bad woh.haha.but he behaves quite awkwardly i think.muz b newbie. he remarked tt we're students cos he saw my ezlink card when i paid for e cd.boliao n ptless rgt?
i finally wore e new tops i bought 6wks ago! haha. all approved by cheese/pl they all woh.so sure can make it one.haha.

nni at ttsh is cheem.but quite interestin too cos nv got to see many neuro cases at nuh. thou i still find localising a huge challenge.. i'm usually over e moon already when i can do e steps correctly n pick up e signs.no time to think abt where lesion is!
n i LOVE Mr bean soy bean ice cream.ate 2 in 2 consecutive days. nv eat proper lunch eat tt. but it's really nice! not too sweet n a light soy bean taste n e auntie give quite a lot. yummy! next emed postin i'm gg to eat too.
watched Da vinci code. thanks to anin! so sorry i fell asleep at 1 small part.heh..tom hanks dun look gd leh.. i dun quite get e fuss or big deal abt it though.i found e movie v dry. heard e bk was much better. seems to me e author's a skillful writer tryin to make a mt of a ridiculous molehill, bankin on a sensitive topic. but honestly, even if i'm not a Christian, e plot would still seem pretty weak. i wonder if leonardo is alive wld he b flabbergasted n sue like mad. isn't it a little too li4 hai4 to draw so many inferences frm 1 painting? n with all due respect, leonardo is a famous artist but is he an authority in Christianity? not tt i am, but juz seem farni lor. even newton got dragged in.
what is e draw for e bk, bsides e perhaps excellent story-tellin skills? mayb pple inherently like sensational thrilling gossips. human beings r all attracted to gossips rgt. e bible has been ard for ages, n e few frens who tok to me n praised e bk lots have nv read e bible i think. isnt it funny tt they've nv bothered abt e bible, which was written by many diff pple over diff times at diff venues but which soo 'coincidentally' had e same theme, but hang on to a new bk written by 1 man?
my only conclusion is, pple like gossips cos it doesn't req any commitment. we like to hear abt this n tt, chip in some of our exaggerations (tt makes gossip more juicy, enjoyable n captivating wat) even when we dunno e pple involved well. unlike a journalist writing a newspaper report, gossip stories can b packaged as fictional n dun req much accountability. it isn't subject to official scrutiny but pple will propagate it anw. truthful reportin needs actions to follow, eg some govt action or wat, but internet gossips can get by with email fwding, cause some confusion which nobody can really verify. so believing e bible needs certain commitment n actions but engaging in gossip is pure entertainment. which is easier? of cos some truths r discovered by initial rumours, like e nkf thinggy. but those rumours could be investigated n light cld b shed. in leonardo's case, it was si wo dui zhen, to quote tvb style heh.
n v often, e best gossips r sensational fiction mixed in with bits n pcs of truths, so it gets troublesome to separate n we will juz swallow it. heck, since it doesnt req commitment, who cares? at least i seldom bother for gossips not concernin me. do you?

http://www.syfc.org.sg/events/dvc/cinema.html haha quite farni.

post surg elective

2006-05-14T00:31:00.000+08:00

haven been bloggin. partly cos sgh comp cant blog. n i'm too tired to do so when i'm home, n got nothin v spectacular either.
i think dis is e slackiest posting i've had so far. thou e hrs r super long n i'm super tired by e time i'm home, i haven read >2 pg of txtbk over e 4 wks. n clerk < 5 mayb? din do any nite duty at all. wa seh. canot make it. e highlight of e posting is text twist. wa alot of them hav super gd vocab lor. dunno wat they read when they were kids. thanks to them a new high score of 155000 was reached! n so sad we gotta leave e game there cos we're late for clinics liao. haha. but e pple in our grp were v fun. haha.

bought a v funny pair of shoes today! royal sportin hse at imm got 50% off storewide! super worth it man. if i dun already hav an obiang pair of sandals i wld hav bought there. n if i'm e type who wears slippers also v gd. $29 50% off so $15 for teva woh. then lots of girls' mizuna elle addidas tops. i bought a green/grey elf like kind of slip on shoes frm teva $68-->$34. quite weird lookin but i like. then an auntie asked me abt sandals cos she nv bought bef then i educated her as if i expert like tt. haha. do i have an auntie face? i realise alot of aunties like to tok to me. haha. mayb it's called qin2 he2 li4. anw imm is a nice place.lots of shops n free parkin!
hang ten sellin doraemon tshirts but v ex n not nice one.

i noe wat i want for bday liao. i want either a funky swatch, or a tough tough digital casio which can tahan sweat kind, or a dvd player. i saw akira n enzer brand at giant cost <$60. thou they may not b gd but can watch can liao. so i can watch all e dvd frm thai,msia,china.

next wk at nni liao. no more cheap n gd chup cai peng =(

dirty water bot II

2006-05-01T15:49:00.000+08:00

haha these 2 taken while cleanin my dirty water bot on e mrt. gross rgt. 2 sides of e tissue paper. n it's only e lid.i nv take foto of e dirt frm e wall of e bot i attempted to clean at nite. haha.

highlight of this wk: i ate free ben n jerry ice cream at great world on tue! strawberry cheesecake flavor. we were quite early in e queue n they took our foto to paste on their board! haha.

dont u love long wkends? i fnished my 18 year old bride korean vcd.. heh

do u noe where i can dl free michael jackson's childhood mp3? it's e theme song for free willy 2. v nice!

sick

2006-04-23T00:11:00.000+08:00

i'm sick again.i wonder y. is it bcos of e recent overdose of expired food? carrot juice at oscar's hse (again!), choco wafer and bread at home, or is it lack of sleep since electives started? not tt i'm hardworkin but e hrs r juz so long! not v productive thou, in my opinion. or is it bcos i've been drinkin frm a really gross n dirty water bot which i finally realised n decided to throw away. no wonder my bot seemed a bit blur..got cakes of mud like dirt at e curved edges of e mouthpc part n e lid n i used 1 whole tissue to clean it still not enuff. then when i went home n attempted to salvage it, i realised 3/4 of e bottle surface is blur blur one, which made me recall e aftnoon i saw r, her bottle bought at ard same time as me was clear as new. so i used lots of detergent, toothbrush n scrub but it din have much effect.was still hopin tt mayb tt's a sign tt e blurriness is not due to dirt. then i rem cheesie's technique n i used chopstick n serviette n scratch n wala! brown brown mud like thing came off!! can pple get sick n die from drinkin from dirty bots? gross...so anw my poor bot is on its way to incinerator now..i shall use disposable mineral water bots n change every wk now. see, how can i wear contacts? if i wear muz wear daily kind, else i sure kenna all sorts of infection.

n we din set oscar's hse on fire.simply bcos e gas ran out half way, n we switched to microwave.haha.

i got new fone! dupod 585.i v sad thou.1 wk aft i bought e price dropped! but i think it's quite value for $. got mp3, blue tooth,windows mobile n expandable memory. gg get a miniSD card soon.so now i got doraemon mp3 ringtone! then i also got bible in it. cool huh, for $198. then my tutor is carryin e exact same fone as me! but O2 one.. i muz make gd use of it man. anyone now of any program windows mobile can support muz tell me k!!

n oh, carine, i'm sceptical to ur jia gei wo song for my wedding.. haha.

hols!

2006-04-13T22:03:00.000+08:00

whee~ i passed my test. guess wat i got for clinical test. if my estimation is correct, i got a grand score of 15.25 out of 30! yay! with 95% confidence interval of 14.25-16.25. so happy. esp aft wat jt said tt pt got e weirdest story in e ward, n my ans were 1800km away frm e real diagnosis. i think e testers were merciful..

went klunch today during lunch break w bird n cheese.sing until i'm voiceless now.so is bird. all her fault.she always scream so loud i muz go loud also to hear myself.n i got a weak voice.so there. n all e campus superstar songs to sing! i like e duet junyang n yonglin!sang it 3 times.

i muz borrow vcds n watch!

corrinne may

2006-04-13T00:25:00.000+08:00

Mr Beasley.... Mr B?

You don't have to drive a fancy car
Don't have to quote me Shakespeare
Just to woo me
Yeah I see your nervous laughter
When you're trying to crack some joke
Well you don't fool me

I'd like to see your eyes through those goggles that you're wearing
Don't try to hide away

*Just be yourself Mr. Beasley
I don't need your show of attitude
Cos it's your soul that makes me fall in love with you
Fall in love with you

You don't notice but I see you
In the church when you were praying
You just move me
And my friend Sue she tells me
You've been teaching kids for free
Mr Philanthropy

post psycho clinical test

2006-04-12T10:21:00.000+08:00

i'm dead meat. e minced kind summore.not weight watchers thou, cos high fat content.
my interview was gone, my discussion was jiaklat, n i'm still blur as to e diagnosis. n they kept quizzing n quizzing wat else wat else but i cldnt ans.but it was a gd thing i slept alot yest n din study really cos i think e result wld still b e same. to b fair, if i were them, i wld b hard up for reasons to pass me. so i can oni hope they'll b kind n lemme off w a borderline pass. but i cant even get a decent history..felt so out of control.sigh. i dun think i've ever been so close to failing in clinicals, even surg med paeds i agar agar noe can pass, thou may not be gd but still can pass.
nwravwejwairh arrghh..........

psych is interesting for e kaypoh me, but i've got no flair for it..

haivuregqliwbrq

2006-04-01T02:10:00.000+08:00

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sometimes isn't it nice to tok gibberish? dun need to be anything smart or sensible or brain-using.i think sounds are impt as expressions even by themselves, w/o formation of words.is tt y they teach those sound alike techniques in poetry? which i totally dun understand but blindly quote? mayb contempory poetry isnt like tt? y dun some pple write sth more understandable?

juz like mute or deaf pple also make sounds in extreme of moods..i love to growl or bark or roar or luff, dep on my mood.audible ones too.haha burps aren't counted.heh.

pscyhomed..seems like everybody has some psycho prob.some dark prob behind every1. the human heart is dark n deep.who can see thru it? but yet sometimes it seem so explanable n so similar to everyone else's. same fears..juz like diff parts of a chicken, but still part of e chicken. i mean diff manifestations as diff disorders but essentially if u distillise it it's agar agar e same old same old family..

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ok.i'm primitive.so wat.bleah!nannny nannny poo poo.

sesame personality

2006-03-26T01:31:00.000+08:00

Snuffleupagus
You scored 60% Organization, 51% abstract, and 57% extroverted!

This test measured 3 variables.

First, this test measured how organized you are. Some muppets like Cookie Monster make big messes, while others like Bert are quite anal about things being clean.

Second, this test measured if you prefer a concrete or an abstract viewpoint. For the purposes of this test, concrete people are considered to gravitate more to mathematical and logical approaches, whereas abstract people are more the dreamers and artistic type.

Third, this test measured if you are more of an introvert or an extrovert. By definition, an introvert concentrates more on herself and an extrovert focuses more on others. In this test an introvert was somebody that either tends to spend more time alone or thinks more about herself.

You are somewhat organized, both concrete and abstract, and both introverted and extroverted.

I bet you didn't think you were Snuffleupagus. Let's find out why.

You are both somewhat organized. You have a good idea where you put things and you probably keep your place reasonably clean. You aren't totally obsessed with neatness though. Alloyius Snuffleupagus (and all Snuffleupagus') is not sloppy by nature, but he moves so incredibly slowly that it is impossible for him to be totally organized.

You both are about equally concrete and abstract thinkers. You have a good balance in your life. You know when to be logical at times, but you also aren't afraid to explore your dreams and desires... within limits of course. Snuffy generally has very basic interests, but he explores his abstract sensitive side when he plays his snuffleflute.

You both are somewhat introverted. Originally Snuffleupagus was very shy and was only Big Bird's invisible friend. However as he has aged he has started to build new friendships with new characters. Like Snuffy, you probably like to have some time to yourself. However, you do appreciate spending time with your friends, and you aren't scared of social situations.

The other possible characters are
Oscar the Grouch
Big Bird
Cookie Monster
Ernie
Elmo
Kermit the Frog
Grover
The Count
Guy Smiley
Bert

If you enjoyed this test, I would love the feedback! Also if you want to tell me your favorite Sesame Street character, I can total them up and post them here. Perhaps your choice will win!

cookin class

2006-03-16T00:53:00.000+08:00

went for cookin class at my hse CC there. supposed to b frm 730-930 but e aunties there were super scarily ks. i reached at 730 n i was e last one.every1 was there already, with e worksheets of recipes on hand, n they brought clipboards n pens summore to take notes. then e most amazing part is, they even brought digicam to take videos of e teacher slicin sotong lor!! n being my 1st time there, i din noe muz bring own containers x3 to ta pao food back. thank gdness got one ah pek also nv bring so i not so malu. apparently all e aunties noe e teacher v well n has been to his other classes bef.
but not bad la.he tot a lot of useful tips tt if nobody taught i wldn't have known. eg for fried hk mee u can buy those egg noodles n soak in tap water for 5 min, drain n leave to stand for 10min n it'll b nice n soft. then muz semi shallow fry to make it fragrant bef cookin again w all e other ingredients. so cheem rgt. but havin said tt, dun expect me to cook anything decent on fri.. i'll b e washer girl..

today went kushinbo to eat.eat until my tummy bulge so much i cant c my toes. haha. we all agreed buffets r not gd for us, so next break we shall go roller blading instead! yay. then i got a v useful $25 kbox voucher frm yx/pris! hahaha. thou i wont bother to get a better gift for yx.heh.

finally went to see some1's blog aft so long. a girl in love really looks diff hor. e glow on her face 'rong guang huan fa' n e concomittant changes in dress sense, esp since CC is supposedly pretty fashionable.haha. n our fren gp A2 one leh, no wonder makes a gd verbal sparring partner. heh.
waa..once upon a time was i like tt too? *ah ma fondly thinkin abt days of her youth*..

johari window

2006-03-14T16:04:00.000+08:00

Click here to do my johari thing
dun play cheat. do this 1st!! i kaypo wanna noe.

Here for the results

hols plan

2006-03-13T15:01:00.000+08:00

wa. actu how to spend hol time purposefully can b a big headache too. coordinating things is always a headache for me, rgt tulip?

THURS: hopefully bird's machine wont get repaired so she can bring me to private sale.og orchard..but at least morn n dinner plans quite confirmed. me meetin oscar dinner orchard on thurs.whoeva wanna come. come. so a full day ahead.4 birds w 1 stone!
isnt it troublesome when our hols r so off? whole world have lab reports, attachments,exms while i tryin to find pple to play w me..oscar say i muz show off my red highlighted punky hair.i muz also wear nice nice to intimidate her. so she wont b e oni one always revamp leave me bhind!

Fri: cookin at anin's. yummy. i can b washer girl since cant cook. then tuition.

wed: mayb buffet..thou i really cant eat so much liao

tues: nus errand. then cookin class at nite! i cant believe it.i sign my ma up for some cookin class in CC then she canot go.so instead of wastin, i'm supposed to go in her place! *faint* i can still rem vividly, n horridly my lousy cookies in home econs.throw on floor also wont break.i almost broke my ma's teeth when she tried to show support by eating.poor her. haha. all e teacher's fault.nv tell me cookies shld still b soft initailly when they're out of e oven.

quite an eventful past wkend. went shoppin,(i drag cheese n anin to revamp me but end up they buy alot of stuff while i oni bought 2 cute B bear hair clips.ha!), dinner, roller blading. i really like leh.cant wait to go again.but so hard to find pple.ani1 gg pls jio me. then i highlighted my hair red! n got a fringe.i hate fringe cos it'll make my forehead itch. but time to change a bit la.i muz still consciously tell myself not to put hairband or push it aside.i think it looks quite odd, but u all muz support me k! i bought a pair of shoes too! those strappy kind, elevated slightly, uniformly so it's not heeled. then got strap bhind so i can run aft bus without kickin it off.haha, found super long for dis kind of shoes lor.finally saw. n i bought a pair of pink pants! hahahahahaha
dun worry, it's linen n cotton kind, not those flashy kind.n it's light pink.but muz alter so wont b wearin it so soon..n guess wat. I THREW AWAY 13 TOPS yest! no point keepin those cannot make it clothes. waste of space.n i found some impulsively bought clothes which i've nv worn.. nv tot tt ah ma like me also got such stuff..

are facials painful? it is v ex? it is really useful? hmm...

post exam

2006-03-09T01:41:00.000+08:00

wa v impressed with e mental capacity of med pple..i tot i slept late liao.but almost every1 i noe slept as late if not later than me! n i feel like dying already liao.. how am i gg to survive hsemanship? mayb i muz make him deliver supper to me..so i can stay awake..yar rgt. e post prandial state will oni make me more sleepy. but weird leh.post exam, even thou u're super tired, u're juz not willin to sleep.. like makin up for lost time.haha. so long nv touch computer for play purposes liao. nv read blogs, nv check other's online fotos, haven look at 'city chicken' foto. haha! haven sort out all e songs i kop frm my bro.haven clear my thumbdrive n antique mp3..
n i'm finally able to sit down listen to e corrine may songs liao.saw a lisa ang hosted show abt her on cna..

i think i'm too last min liao. 1st 2 wk of hols, opps study break, i watch sooo much tv. i'm totally in love w sesame st.cookie monster to b exact. 1230-1330 wkdays kids central.he's such an absolute darling i want to kiss him n give him all e cookies in e world. if i can like a fake character so much, does it show how flippant my emotions r? or is tt e rgt word to use? or if i can like a fake character so much, how much stronger true love wld be! not nec romantic love, but family love etc. i believe blood ties r there not as a coincidence.so all e more we muz treasure n learn to tolerate n accept differences.i'm too impatient n unforgiving i think.

haha, i think this is called deprived childhood.thou i still hate e number counting which i find super boring. n i watch so much superstar show.i hav crush on zeng yonglin.she's so preety.. my bro n i were juz gushin away. n tt adriano boy has totally replaced e toot toot ri boy. his anata song is so cute! haha. n i like america next top model, n i like am idol.. i even watch westside story at wee hrs.thou it's totally stewpid.haha. an utter waste of time, tv is, bside sesame st tt is.ernie is so cute too. n poor little bert, his gd fren tt always gotta take his nonsense, thou he's so touching sometimes...elmo luffs a little too much for my liking.

not until 1 of my leg is in e coffin wld i start to panic.to borrow frm my most disliked mr gomez, 'it's not time to worry yet'..wheneva he wants to tok crap n dun teach us, always sayin he can complete syllabus in 3 months but he CLDNT. made us stay back do really stupid tys tt he wrote himself which he doesnt have ans for so we gotta come back during hols to help him pen model ans. i owe my grade to marionne chong.haha, thou it's not a gd grade, but at e end of e day, so long as i get thru to where i wan to go, does it matter?so wat if i get 60 for ca if every1 gets 80? well, of cos it helps to pass u if ya exam is bad, but otherwise does it matter? i cant rem my scores last sem lor.but i can rem e arguments i had w pple ten yrs ago..i rem e wrongs i did to others in my childhood.i rem e ugly side of me.kids need teaching.i keep making mistakes, n take v long to learn frm them..

been reading ST daily thou. read an interesting article abt a survey on y pple divorce.thou e reasons arent beyond wat u can guess, but it re affirms sth.marriage is a commitment u tell yaself u wont give up no matter wat. unless abuse of cos, or infidelity. i think no man shld ever lift a finger towards a woman. i realise i am v v easily affected and for v long too by arguments. mayb it's a phobia of arguments.thou i recognise they r tools for understanding n maturing. i give up too easily.this applies to other stuff as well.i always say i'm lazy,i always seek e path of e least resistance safe for certain issues tt i will stick my guts to. i think marriage n family life shld b liddat too. if u always hav this back up plan to pack n go, things wont resolve.especially dun let a moment of anger create an eternal scar. 'in ya anger, do not sin'..i have always tried to my best to rem this when i get angry. but when i'm angry, i get silently destructive.i will destroy stuff, but i will not shout or scream too much.i muz learn to express myself better. & most imptly, of cos, u muz b assured e man u're gonna marry is one tt u can depend on for life.., even in ya anger n midst of argument u can b assured of tt..
ok,dun worry, nothin happen betw us.juz tt i always am interested in such topics.

n i realised recently i dun like pple to doubt wat i say. esp cos i dun lie much, n i'm already so straightfwd almost till being rigid. if i say so, i mean so.dun assume i mean sth else. i'm a v simple person really.my words can b taken at face value.

oh n recently got some articles abt drs n stuff. i do think there're quite a number of fields tt r pretty interesting, incl family med. y r pple quick to think tt gps r a class lower? mayb cos they dun need too much further training? but to b a gd gp isnt easy either, n u can play an impt role in many pple's lives.dep on how relevant u make yaself to be. y shld e eyes look down on e ears? we're all in a body to serve a function. dun think of urself higher than u ought to. neither judge others for by e same measure u'll b judged. havin gd esteem doesnt equate lookin down on others.but then again, nowadays i do get e impression tt alot of drs arent who we expect them to be. some r like salesman sellin beauty services. actu i do think they serve a function as well. we gotta adapt to changin needs of society, but muz use discretion. many things r permissible, but not everything is in e perfect will. where's e line? bef u embark on it, u muz decide ya stand else it's too easy to b swayed by commercialism.. power corrupts, as e new dunno wat credit card says. so i think it's gd to not expose yaself to temptation u canot withstand. dun b like Lot..
to be fair, i'm definitely not holy holy n all nice n wanna save every1 in e world. u can see tt by my sloth.haha. but every1 in this occupation shld hav a soft heart essential i think. a streak of kindness n integrity. e chi saying goes 'yi zhe fu mu xin'.. but bef tt i muz learn to b diligent n persevere.

then again, i think my cofm paper is bad today..dun wanna think abt it. i wanna go blading and shoppin!

ok time to give others credit. every1 beat me at word racer today! gosh, i'm bad at all games liao! minesweeper, bejweled,word racer! haha! but at e end of e day, does it matter? i'd still enjoy e game..

weird dreams

2006-02-27T10:36:00.000+08:00

wa i really got weird dreams.
i dreamt last nite tt bird was cousin to this super hot girl (her sec sch fren who also went rj) n she bought her a topless porcelain figurine lyin in a bed then bird was looking for some nice cloth material to be a bed sheets.then i told her it really runs in the family how bao4 lu4 they are.haha.
then i dreamt of meeting r at buona vista mrt,thou it's unlikely she'll take mrt since she stays clementi, then i dreamt yq parked v far away at e rochester park near buonavista then she walk over to e mrt to take mrt..hahaha..
i'm gg cuckoo..

disappointed

2006-02-15T11:17:00.000+08:00

2 things tt disappointed me recently...

1) NUS fee hike. wat e ****! they juz did so last yr! i'm goona faint liao. so now our fees stand at $17,520 pa. cf $16,200 in yr 1.gdness gracious me.. it's testing my 'dun-swear,dun-curse' discipline. 16200 x 2yrs + 17000 x 1 yr + 17520 x 2 yrs = $84,440! i can almost buy a 2-rm hdb flat in full w this.. assuming i took full bank loan, and my bro's dbs prime rate is 5%, and interest rates r gg up, i dunno how to calculate liao.. somebody who did e calculations n suggested $100/hr 's e cost of our lectures shld do a re-calculation.. i really wonder where e $ gg..cf to other facs, we dun do lab work, we seldom stay in sch byond using e medlib aircon.. hibiscrub? alcohol swabs?

2) my fav RI boy in campus superstar Li Yinwei got kicked out!so sad.thou he's really toot n his supporters r toot too, he sings decently! at least cf e handsome but cant sing for nuts boy..

SIGH

finally

2006-02-08T11:40:00.000+08:00

haha finally my bro passed us fotos of his wedding..1 yr after..long awaited. shall post some of my stunning fotos here.ah hahaha.

my r e order of fotos reversed? wanted this to b e last. to conclude tt mayb frank cld b rgt: i look e best when u see the least of me.heh.

Very rare foto of me n him woh. i think i smile e best here. so sweet n candid. haha. high value for gossip mongers. if u cant get enuff of me can enlarge u noe.n e flower ribbon thing on my R wrist is v nice!

the 4 chio receptionists.give more hongbao can?

like sitting for exam..

in e day..

post cny

2006-02-06T12:40:00.000+08:00

been chi1 he1 wan2 le4 for e entire cny season i think my brain has rusted.visited alot pple..not many yrs left to collect $ so muz work harder rgt.heh

cant stand certain showy relatives who r actu v giam.but guess showin off is part of cny traditions liao.wat to do.

my bro is selling roses again this V day.he went to learn flower arrangement woh. so dedicated rgt.n it's not too bad, e results. so u all muz support!
did u noe tt forget me nots have purple leaves while their real flower is actu white n really tiny? i'm surprised almost every1 in my family doesnt noe n they all gasped when mine 'bloomed' white mushroom-like stuff in e midst of e purple dry paper-like leaves. i tot we learnt this in pri sch.haha my sci teacher shld b so proud of me.

n my scrabble has improved over this hol season..haha.while others r studyin.oops..

no internet

2006-01-23T10:47:00.000+08:00

my internet connection is cut off! so sad. dunno when it wld b revived.. no, it's not tt i din pay e bills.then again mayb it cld be. in sch now gg for proj meeting..
anyway my new craze is Sudoku..thou i'm pretty lousy at it i think it's quite fun..

blah

2006-01-07T01:07:00.000+08:00

on a brighter note, cofm report submit liao no need to think abt it anymore.juz tt i din noe e parts which i spend so much time on is only 30% of it...
on a sadder note, another proj starting.got 4 shifts to do.go amk clinic do surveys. heard it's v busy so better brace myself.any1 wanna gimme chick essence? i prefer drumsticks. eh oscar mon or thurs aftnoon free to have cookin class? since i'm at amk too.

lunch makes me feel v threatened..threaten of being left behind by time..reminds me of cai qin's 'bei4 yi2 wang4 de4 shi2 guang1'.. heels, make up n wat not.n bird say she's gettin really gd so we shld learn frm her.then oscar remarked i said will revamp bef she went au but come back liao i still exactly e same.heh.forget it la.i got no talent in this kind of thing i give up liao.admit defeat...mayb i shld threaten lunch back.if she revamp i dun lend her doraemon vcds..muahaha.

finally watched lotr return of king.so sad tt frodol wore e ring at e v end.happy yet sad tt smeagol chewed his finger off.i still cant forget e 'betrayal' tt killed all chance of smeagol turnin gd in e two towers episode..but i like many other characters too la..sam, my oh-so-loyal almost faultless gardener, gandalf e super charismatic ah pek..ah ma like!..cute little dwarf n of cos nimble legollas.. n faromil, living in e shadows of baromil but is actu a greater person than he..i think his dad is a cuckoo to wan him dead.100% cuckoo.n y e rohan girl at 1st like aragon then suddenly so fast change affections to faromil? n y so little show of liv tylor? she so chio! wat did it mean when e glass pendent she gave aragon broke?e end of her immortality?

played sg version of monopoly.with geylang as old kent rd n queen astrid park as mayfair.haha.lost though.no chance to make a comeback summore.so sad.

b will b back frm bangkok tmr!fish maw fish maw i'm waiting w open arms! oops, did i say i asked him to buy lots of fish maw back? heh...

new yr

2006-01-02T15:24:00.000+08:00

Bird: Had a girls' outing at Marina yesterday... we went to Changing Appetites again. They didn't really like it but I did. I simply love the desserts there! After shopping, Ah Mah felt hungry again so she went to Han's and ate another main course. She's an amazing eater I must say. She was telling all of us how much she ate after gym-ing with Sharon the other day. Wah her stomach is like bottomless pit! And she weighs the same as me loh. Bleah.Ah Mah really has bad taste. The things she looks at and the things we look at are worlds apart. She keeps saying she wants a revamp, but whenever we give her suggestions she doesn't accept. Too bad for her lah, think she'll just have to stay Ah Mah... muahaha...

Lunch: after much discussion we have decided on millenia foodcourt, which nobody knows how to go. haha. great. we aunties are just so bent on avoiding the crowds so we just have to choose a ulu place where nobody, including ourselves, knows how to go. but i'm sure we will find our way around the problem.dinner with oscar ah ma skinny bird (cheese came later) was as usual... hilarious. instead of going to millenia walk foodcourt, we ended up in changing appetites at marina square. marina sq was surprisingly quiet and deserted. which was good. ok good for me but bad for the shopholders. only bird found the portion of food satisfactory. thatz y she's called bird food lah~ ah ma had to eat an extra main course at han's later when cheese was having her dinner. as usual, attempts to revamp ah ma failed miserably, with her looking thru can3 bu4 ren3 du3 clothes. actually i feel that ah ma doesn't need a revamp. she's cute in her own way lor=) hehe. everyone has his or her special characteristics. thatz what makes one unique right? and ah ma is exceptionally unique. if u get what i mean. hehe. her belligerence, her way of devouring food, her preferences for food and so on... and all these points make ah ma an entertaining and interesting friend. wah. ah ma must be floating in mid air by now. and ah bird was constantly reminding us of how pretty she looked. haha. i shall not post what i said in response to that.
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duno y too.sometimes i juz feel constantly hungry..n it's not tt i dun wanna revamp leh.juz tt cannot suddenly too much rgt..like tt Fox thing i was ready to change leh.too bad cuttin dun fit mah.heh.anyway u all agree i'm cute as i am rgt? n i proved to u i'm an auntie killer.all ya mums like me rgt? n G2000 clothes cannot be too can bu ren du rgt. i'm juz glad i'm not in sales line. it's ok tt i look plain n boring.mayb tt can add to my credibility look leh..ok i admit, excuses.
n i'm really amazed at bird.she gave us her food n she still can b full.no wonder she lost 5kg in 5months.of cos muz mention her induced vomitin helped her. she really abit cuckoo tt day.keep praising herself..wat chalets can do to birds..

went shoppin w b. actu he wanted to get key pouch so we were at bugis.then i was standin outside wallet shop lickin my crystal jade chick wing away when he parked n came. then he said 'where got any self respecting girl eat like tt one?' heh... mayb i shld get lunch to buy me those skirts too...

was at elly's bday at new yr eve.she's so cute.juz like bef.n serene's still e same too.i luff n smiled till my facial muscles ache.quite nice to meet aft sooooo long to tok abt farni rgs teachers. some i wld have forgotten if they din mention.but dot's imitation of chau is so farni. n i especially liked weimin's notes on e 21 gifts.. so farni n apt! heh.. i think next yr when all e overseas pple come back we shld hav a proper gathering.

promised to blog abt this.i finally noe someone who's lazier than me.makes me mad man! my bro tt unhygienic pig was too lazy to wash a spoon to eat rice tt he used his hands! not e 1st time either. n he cld tell me e diff ways to eat rice with fingers.n i bet u his nails got tons to staph n strep trapped lor. not to lose my stronghold, i freaked him out by eating gooey ladies finger in a yucky way (shall not elaborate) til he wanted to merlioned. haha sickenin siblings

i'm gettin pre sch blues..n cofm overdose...

text twist

2005-12-29T15:55:00.000+08:00

result of doing cofm report....how hardworking can i get..

gym

2005-12-29T14:35:00.000+08:00

oscar: have to blog about my exciting/highclass/chic gym outing today. me and ah mah went to fitnessfirst @ paragon (wow~!) with free drinks provided, sauna and dance class! we joined the modern dance class, and can imagine how paiseh it was, cos the members there are regular pro pple! anyway, they provide tv screens with cha8, CNN, espn etc. and we saw chen han wei there...but dont worry, i promptly ate back all the calories lost tonight cos mum brought LANA cake home. and btw ah ma commented that she got no teeth to bite the hard nougat :P
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muz thank 2 pple 1st. 1) anin for givin me free one-time pass! ya so high class we felt so outta place lor.n not bad leh,still got c tcs actor.hehe i overheard him tok to his personal trainer 'today do shoulder ah' haha.then i think i really dun like mirrors. e bodyjam aka dance class got so many mirrors,make me realise how awkward i looked.haha but for a moment i imagined i'm some superstar trainee learnin dance steps leh.heh. then hor, e female changin rm is so high class lor.got nice tables w mirrors hair dryer n cotton pads for makeup.then got alot of taitais n indonesian n jap n angmohs.n some of them juz change in e open leh!my eyes almost popped out.
then i also promptly ate 1 wing,i carrot cake, full cream milk, 2 curry puffs,choco,chinchow,4 scoops icecream in addition to rice dinner for the rest of the day.

2)oscar gimme an aptly red top i can use for my cny haha.n i realised soft nougats r nice leh.creamy n sweet.

why my bro tok so cheem one.i almost tot some authorities issuin me warnin letter.scary siah.
i think cookin class is gg to pao-tang liao...

2005-12-27T14:28:00.000+08:00

so soon comin end of hols.n i haven done my cofm report!
oscar finally back. sun's cheese party my whole grp of lunch skinny n oscar not ard lor. but saw puzhu n husband.heh. n i still haven done anythin havoc. all thanks to chp which twart all my plans.
played alot scrabble n pictionary.i'm gd! went roller blading n fell twice on my bum. 1 thing tt made me super pek cek is tt my bro's lapptop cant watch e pirated last movie of lotr. i wanna noe wat happen to smeagol! he makes me so sad.

better treasure e last of my hols.cookin class at oscar's.n E's bday at last day of e yr. ages since i last saw her.wonder how e other 4/1 pple r. but i'm really quite an introvert.i pref small grp meetings than large parties.

happy hols!
oh cheese got a digicam liao.v nice one..

out of date

2005-12-19T08:46:00.000+08:00

i'm really not called ah ma for nothing.i'm so out of date tt i marvel at myself sometimes. eg i watched meteor garden last yr, when f4 sortaf disbanded liao.then sat i watched lord of e rings for e 1st time.used to think tt fantasy stories r weird n cheem but aft watchin 1 last 30min on tv on sat i took my bro's dvd to watch n with his explanation of e storyline, i fell in love w it.so interesting! so here i am, when others tokin abt narnia liao i still stuck here, negative timeline by 4 yrs.

marina bay got alot staemboat buffet shops fightin for business..actu it's not bad if u can stand e smoke n smell.till now my specs smells of bbq lor.haha.

we went to buy my Christmas present! guess wat it is. a doraemon watch! haha.he saw it at taka last wk but cldn't decide which one to buy (got 1 whole glass cabinet of designs) so we went n i chose.so cute! at 1st i was thinkin of gettin a flick flack cos i love some of their designs n it might even b cheaper than this doraemon. n i think e quality isnt really there,n it's not at all value for $ but i really like it la, so i'm against my principle of value-for-$ this time round.n it's a gd thing he din buy initially.cos now they throw in a free doraemon soft toy too.hehe.
so see me next yr with it!

wat a bother tt i dun hav a dvd player..muz wait for my bros to come back to lemme use their laptops..meanwhile lemme daydream abt Liv tyler..so pretty!

end of posting

2005-12-16T23:20:00.000+08:00

yay! end of posting.so glad for hols.can keep my peads kit n kiss gdbye to cryin babies.
promptly went home to watch bridget jones on vcd.it's super farni! haha.i think all singles shld go watch.n she's so fat n she's always in undies. haha, e next closest to my wild dream of every1 not needin to wear anything without feelin shame shame.

tmr klunch w jr.then ttsh w church to give presents,then shoppin for my watch.
sun got pri sch gathering
mon got chp then bird shoppin
tue got chongqing buffet w cg
wed tuition then small grp Christmas celeb
thurs nite scgs w jr
fri nite crusade heeren sakae
so this is my schedule for comin wk.

yay! gonne hone my skills on stupid games liao..n vcds!

lazy

2005-12-11T21:53:00.000+08:00

there's raelly a price to pay for being lazy.wat goes ard comes ard.dun bother to print or zap stuff lah,dun bother to do tut qns la.now last min crammin makes me sick.end up givin myself a whole day off to pak-tor instead.aiyo.

bought scrabble today.yeah can play next wk!i got buffet,shoppin,jb trip comin up.hopefully can get to rollerblade too.whoeva intersted pls ask me n cheese k.n i ALMOST bought play-dough! i really like it leh.so fun!got bfast set! can make waffles eggs bacon n alot of dunno wat.n it's only $19.90! but i think my ma will scream her head off if i spend $ on such a space-occupyin lesion in my v limited rathole.. n i'm v sad.my swatch watch frm sec 2 is officialy dead. multi organ failure.can do lots of transplants to save it but no point la.i changed e strap 3 times.each time $26.n batteries too.n now e knob to adjust time is stuck too.i like it alot, but sometimes we have to learn to let go.. so now i'm down to juz 2 watches.my myanmar $4 one which i wont mind kids peeing at, n my reg metal fossil.. looks like i shld get b to get me a watch for Christmas..

survived PF.spent 2 days on it man!wanna faint.she's really raelly particular.thou e grade is not raelly impt but we all end up spendin disproportinate large amt of time on it.n lazy me readin thru e volumes!i'm so glad for XY.she's really a great help..

frank is back frm pgp liao.so now my hse more crowded n noisy.but tt means more technical support for my comp too. haha.

new tagboard

2005-12-03T14:58:00.000+08:00

haha i got a new tag board! chatterbox played me out so now i'm jumpin to oscar's tagboard.
juz ended pharm ca.i'm so sick of studyin.not tt i've been studyin alot thou.
aft sellin e soma kits went for chp qnaire meeting.then went lib wanted to read straits times.end up yx saw me n i dragged her to play games w me.wanted to trash her at word racer to boost my ego muahaha but there werent enuff comp ard!then we played combi power text twist w alot of others n we got >100,000 points b4 stopping. haha lazy pig me.

lazy

2005-11-25T15:16:00.000+08:00

gettin too lazy to blog.
most inerestin thing tt happedned so far was my cousin's weddin to an angmoh guy.i think ang mohs got this interesting charm.funny, witty n in his case v sensitive too i think.haha she got gd catch.n their cocktail got wat u noe? raw herring w raw onions! u slurp it down.. most pple incl my bros were absolutely disgusted.but guess wat.i absolutely love it! it is a bit fishy slimy n soft but it's like sashimi wat.i ate as much as i think i cld w/o gettin diarrhea.i drool thinkin of it.yum.

frank's post

2005-10-23T00:15:00.000+08:00

for e benefit of other ms addicts like me, here's my bro's 2sens worth of ms strategy manual..
(strictly for ms addicts only)

Minesweeper
If you don't know me, you probably won't know that I'm a minesweeper fanatic.Not the MSN type where you compete with your friend to click on mines - I'm talking about the classical minesweeper that comes with all versions of Windows. Yes I'm quite addicted to that little insignificant piece of program, when I should really be playing World of Warcraft, DOTA or some other fancy games out there in the market that everyone else is playing.Why do I play minesweeper?Other than the blatant fact that I'm quite addicted to it, it takes up much less time than WOW and DOTA to play, and I can stop whenever I want to (not really!) I also like the logic process of if-this-then-that-else-this-but-since-this-therefore-cannot-that involved, and I can be absorbed in it for hours on end!In my endeavours to cut down on useless clicks and processes to achieve a better timing, I have also come to realise the similarities between situations in life and Minesweeping, mainly:
1. An element of probability is always involved.To actually get a manageable starting scenario in minesweeper, you'd need the first few clicks to open a significant portion of the space - and none of them should actually be a bomb. This is not possible all the time, and you'd find yourself dead before the game has started, much like you don't always find yourself in a winnable situation in life. What then can you do? You have to move on to the next game and carry on to fight a battle you can win.
2. You'll need experience to be successful.Winning minesweeper requires you to cache certain patterns like 3-3-3, 1-2-1, 1-2-2-1, so you need not think on runtime. This is much like gaining experience in a field, and being able to carry out repetitive stuff successfully. This is merely the first step to improving efficency, but does not guarantee success in the end.
3. Pre-processing is needed.To further improve timing, you need to know 2 or 3 steps in advance that you can eliminate the pauses in your look(pause)-think(pause)-click pattern of solving minesweeper. This is because our motion is slower than our brain, and you can asyncronously click and think at the same time. Thinking in advance is definitely necessary to prevent yourself from getting into situations you have no way of getting out of (like taking up an insurance policy without considering possible future expenditure, or agreeing to boss' requests without considering the repercussions)
4. If the going gets tough, the tough gets going.When approaching complex situations which you know you CAN solve, but extra time is involved such that you can never make it to beat your best score, you should give up and start on a new game.This is akin to you knowing that you CAN do something, but if the end results doesn't justify the efforts required, you should give up and look for better opportunities.
5. Hard problems are easier to solve if you don't take it head-on.The best thing to do when facing complex situations is not to tackle the problem directly. Look at the big picture. Flank it from the easier-to-tackle sides, and more clues will expose themselves, and you can solve it in a shorter period of time, or you may find that you need not even solve the problem!
6. You don't need to do everything to win the game!I started off with marking every mine on the map and double clicking to expose the safe areas. I found that every marking takes a bit of time, and this contributes to an increased overall timing. By eliminating unnecessary markings (through pre-processing, or marking it in your mind), timing can significantly improve!This is like conscientiously doing all your tutorials without referring to answers and solving all the nitty-gritty details in your assignments - not necessary to understand the gist of the lesson and do well in exam. It's a minimum-effort-maximum-result issue.
7. At the last stage, there is always a 2-choose-1 situation to cock things up. 50% win, 50% lose.C'est la vie.
8. To get really high scores, your inherent response must be good - techniques can only get you so far.To be really really good, it is not enough to be hardworking. You also need inborn talent. Unfortunately I don't have fast responses and thus my minesweeping scores seems to have hit a plateau. Sigh.. such is life.

carine's bday

2005-10-22T23:12:00.000+08:00

happy bday bird! too bad e stuff i got isnt well received.haha lunch/tulip said she v scared of me wont lemme get her gift liao..dun even wan me to write her card aft all e scandalous things i wrote on PL n urs.where got hor? u muz send me our muack-muack foto.

yest i went for jap buffet dinner at hanabi at kings arcade.so qiao3 tulip went there b4. (how cum now lunch got so many names..meilin,tulip) ate like nobody's business.sashimi n everything. then went down e st a bit n came to a v nice place called coudobory n sth..e walls were made of shelves lined neatly w all short of ang moh preserved food n weird bottles of drinks n dunno-wat so if e waitors need to get sth high up they gotta climb a ladder which can slide across e wall.like those old-fashioned libraries we read in storybks..n e whole feel is so nice.got upstairs w nice sofa.
for e 1st time in my life i tried 'icewine', supposedly a rather ex kind of sweet dessert wine tt's super nice! for a moment i tot i was gonna bcum a lousy jiu3 gui3.but it's got a v nice afttaste n actu reminds me of apple juice, juz a 100x more ex.

i cant believe sch's starting again so soon...i got hosp-phobia..i muz revamp myself so i can b a pretty girl so i can stay at home n dun need to work..

REVAMP

2005-10-21T00:07:00.000+08:00

recap of wat happened over e wk.
aft anin's rocket-like internal lift party, sat was PL's chalet party.so happy they got extra kfc n pizza later.then skinny was v late (but she really give alot of face by takin cab to rush down) then we were on e fone tellin her how to come.then her frenly cousin came over n tok to us n i passed him e fone n aft tt we cont to tok abit.n guess wat.some girl tot he was tryin to pick me up! Jr luffed like mad n i took off my shoes n wriggled my toes n said 'dun make my toes luff' while still cont chewin on my kfc drumstick bone.haha, i so no xing-xiang already he still pick means he really eyes ta4 stamp, esp wif all e hot dentistry gals. (promised jr i'll blog this)
n another funny thing.some dentistry pple tot i was 16! n i immed responded,while still chewin my food, tt it muz b bcos of my tshirt,jeans,n slip on duno-wat shoes. n it's my 'best' tshirt which bird got for me.haha.nonetheless i do like to look young.

mon--oscar : started off the week by going GYM with ahmah, as part of Her revamp campaign. she claimed to have done a year's worth of exercise in one morning. and we sort of made friends with the gym's lady instructor, who taught us how to tone up calfs n arms. woo...
i used 500 cal ok! so proud of myself.aft tt session i tot my butt shld shrink by an inch at least but sadly it din..
wed--klunch w my bro.we sang all e oldies. so old until e mtv got no voice one.juz music.haha.
thurs, today--JB makan session.tt's where my saved 500 cal went. quite fun la.thou din get to explore tun's hse as much as i wished.muz thank jack n clara for being my attendents.heh.helpin me cross roads.they really v gd.n i really am a bit blur. i dunno how to respond when i c cars cumin.shld i stop, quickly run ahead, or run back?n somehow some things r quite reflex.like cheese drop her pen on e road n i juz bend n pick it up, n scared all e others.now i understand a bit how come when u watch tv there'll b pple who can juz go on e road n pick up their football w/o lookin at traffic. for e record, i can cross roads by myself.it's juz tt i feel more scared doin so, esp in another country.. aiyo this is so against my ideal of being a tuff cookie.
n i took 160 back frm causeway i tot it'll go cck. end up it doesnt go rgt into cck n i got such a big shock!n i hurry got off rgt b4 it went onto e expressway to jurong (dun ask me which expressway i dunno one)n i ended up walking a looong way home.n dark somemore. n no more attendents somemore.n b was v far away then.so silly of me.next time better stick to mrt..
bought bird's stuff. i like leh.i'm so proud of myself i think i did a gd job.heh.n i do enjoy makin her worried w my taste.heheh.

as promised, i shall now tok abt e all impt topic of revamp..
it all started quite insidously. wif r starting to put on make up.then oscar wif her brows n lipstick n pink skirt! then on PL's party oscar wore short skirt n pink top n bag. wif contacts! n mon aft gym we went her hse n bef she met her frens she put on make up! bird, skinny w make up is nothin new.but oscar! n jr oso wearing more skirts n lacy tops. n today clara expressed intention in revamping her wardrobe.gosh, all e girls ard me are progressing lor.oni me left behind.
i agree tt i do have e potential to look gd. in fact i think i look gorgeous on my bro's wedding.muz bug him for e fotos! (side track a bit. my dist relative who's a few months older than me came over to shake my hand n say bye on e weddin, as thou i'm e one who invited him.n wats significant is tt in childhood he used to b quite cute n i used to go up to him put my hand ard his shoudler n smile happily into e cam while he looks away..in distaste?) so i shldnt waste rgt.
i dun hav to copy wat others r doin, like make up n short skirts.but i definitely can put in more effort, wake up earlier, stop wearing those faded tshirts etc. if u all got any lobang for those make over programs on tv pls nominate me. n for e record i got wear skirts bef. n i do have a nice power suit.. sometimes i feel i'm doin a bit of injustice to b. but at least now i got do exercise n try to cut unnec calories.
I SHALL ATTEMPT TO BE MORE LADYLIKE. this sounds so bird-like. lady-like, bird-like = ladybird-like?? heh. pls remind me to be more demure n stop wearing auntie stuff..
revamp has began...

Handwriting analysis

2005-10-19T18:47:00.000+08:00

******* The Analysis Starts Here *******

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Belinda has no white space or margins on a typical sheet of paper. Belinda fills up every last inch on the top, right, left, and bottom. Hmmm. If this is true, then Belinda has a very aggressive personality toward others and quite frankly lacks a bit of respect for the space and property of other people. I would be surprised if Belinda just comes into someone's home and helps herself to a drink in the refrigerator. This can be both an obnoxious personality trait and it can be assertive and effective in getting what you want. There isn't much fear of getting in trouble here, Belinda finds plenty of reasons to break the rules and get in trouble. (Okay, perhaps when she was younger, not anymore?) Basically, people with no margins are a handful.

Belinda is having a lack of physical energy at the time this handwriting was written. If someone has very short and straight down lower loops (like in the y or g), this indicates this person's physical drive (activity or sex) is compromised. Usually, this indicates the person simply isn't interested in getting too physical right now. This could be a temporary mood which often happens when the body is sick and is healing. Or, this could be a result of an emotional or physical issue that is effecting Belinda 's energy level and interest in sex. Sex doesn't seem to be a priority at the moment.

Belinda is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Belinda is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Belinda basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

In reference to Belinda's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Belinda slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Belinda can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Belinda has an over-awareness of self. She often feels self-conscious. She fears ridicule, therefore she is careful not to place herself in a position to receive any ridicule. She wonders what people will think if she acts in a certain manner. When encountering a new group of people, Belinda may stay on the sidelines until she has the people categorized, or she may behave in a "positive attention getting" manner to assure people think good thoughts about her from the start. In the sales profession, this self-consciousness is called "call reluctance". They take the word "no" as a personal criticism. Therefore, there is an internal struggle when performing this type of work. Although this person may be a great salesperson, she still feels insecurity. She will perform better if someone else is with her because the fear of ridicule from her peers is far greater than the fear of ridicule from her clients. Many times this type of person becomes a sales trainer, because when she is training, she doesn't have to put herself in a position of being told "no" as often as the salesmen do.

Belinda is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.

Most people with a severe leftward slant have some type of childhood trauma they have yet to work through. Since we didn’t actually “see the writing”, we can’t tell if she actually has a hard left emotional slant, but if so… she has issues with trust and it is likely rooted in childhood. Belinda has withdrawn into herself. She is reserved and shows her feelings only at times of great anger, extreme passion, or tremendous stress. Belinda is an introvert. She makes decisions based on logic, therefore she is rarely impulsive. She doesn't find any need for expressing her emotions. In fact, she probably sees this emotional expression as an unnecessary waste of time. She has a hard time relating to an extreme extrovert, although it is common for her to be attracted to one. Many people do not understand Belinda; it is difficult for them to really know how Belinda feels. Belinda enjoys being alone, and probably prefers working alone. Working with her hands is a pleasure. Belinda's basic nature is to look out for herself first. Although she can and does feel emotions, perhaps as deeply as anyone, she just almost always harbors them inside. The first time someone angers Belinda, she probably will not say anything to that person at that time. However, she will mentally keep track of everything this person does wrong to her until she cannot hold her emotions inside any longer. Then; Boom! Belinda will cloud up and rain all over them. And she will never regret telling someone off, because she knew what she was saying the entire time. She won't impulsively tell someone off. Emotional stories will not sway Belinda. She thinks totally with judgment, first considering every situation by the effect it will have on her. Belinda needs space and time alone. She will be much more efficient if given a job alone, rather than being surrounded by people.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Belinda doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

post med post

2005-10-15T16:35:00.000+08:00

i'm so thankful i got a nice examiner.nothing more i can ask for.else w my no-brainer mistakes i'll b done for.n mcqs! e repeats saved e day i think.purposely used my 'Easy' bag. (my jc1 bday present.it's actu a pretty plain bag but got a cartoon character w Easy on his tshirt) in e hope tt e test wld b Easy.haha.
so fast end of posting.i think i'm exceedingly ill-equipped! gosh i cant imagine wat a mad rush it'll b in yr 5.now it's mid of yr 3! feel a little guilty..like i'm doin injustice to e patients i'm gonna c. yet i'm so lazy.still dare to watch hong dou nu zhi lian vcd rgt b4 tests! on e excuse tt it's my bday..but wat i want to do,i do not.tt which i hate to do, this i keep on doin..

bday passed v quietly.thanks for all e sms,cards,gifts (either much earlier or much belated).i'm quite a simple person, n e older i get, e more i believe li qing qing yi zhong rather than fanciful stuff.like i really like e dingdang card made by jack..n like i told huili, i will like it v much if she prints out a foto of us n write a note behind n give me..isnt b blessed to have me?heh.
i think it's nice to hav a small grp lunch rather than a party la.n surprisingly i'm not too xin tong to treat provided it's not too ex la.surprised myself even.it's gd to li shang wang lai rgt. so now i'm 21. i made a pact to watch my 1st RA movie w jr.but dun worry,i'm not gg yangtze.muz choose sth classy k.i'm chee-go-mak, but a tasteful one k. haha.

anin's hse is super nice. pls wait for cheese to blog then read her entry.i wld love to play catchin or hide n seek.
1 wk hols.lots of plans.muz get my life back in order.been feelin a little down for some time.emotionally not so stable. cant blame it on pms all e time rgt.i need sometime by myself. cant make my closed ones suffer my mood swings rgt. on a lighter note, they joke i'm menopausal.cos i said i got hot flushes.haha.

http://www.seniorcitizensawards.com/vote.html vote for yunxins ah gong. GP3
Lim Kiat Chow, 91. so there, i helped her advertise liao. n i voted w 3 IC nos..heh.

8 oct late lunch

2005-10-07T12:34:00.000+08:00

hey 3H, so confirm dis sat 8 oct meet at 3pm at scotts basement crystal jade la mian.

nite duty

2005-10-01T20:11:00.000+08:00

i drag my feet to come nuh on such a fine sat evenin.childrens day sumore.n i was at cck so near to home!cos i gave tuition earlier on, rgt aft morn lect.so sian to wait for the bus.then when i called e reg,he was gg to have dinner. i did my cofm ppt for an hr then he called.then aft followin for 1/2 hr, he said he's done, ask me follow ho. ho havin dinner so here i am. wat a joke.seems like sat got fewer pts, n every1 is more slow paced. so i shall cont my ppt liao. mayb i can go home well b4 e stipulated midnite..
i feel like eating cherries.. no, i'm not preg.. juz 1 of my many everyday-cravings..

2005-09-26T16:50:00.000+08:00

You Are Chinese Food

Exotic yet ordinary.People think they've had enough of you, but they're back for more in an hour.

What Kind of Food Are You?

i love pepperoni!

2005-09-26T16:44:00.000+08:00

Pepperoni Pizza

Robust and dominant.When you go for something, you go full force.You tend to take control of situations easily.And in return, you get a ton of respect.

What's" Your Pizza Personality?

cant sing for nuts

2005-09-26T16:42:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: October 12

Being born on the 12th day of the month (3 energy) is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life. The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental. There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, sometimes "couldn't care less" attitude.
You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression. Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing. You are energetic and always a good conversationalist.
You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters. Your mind is practical and rational despite this tendency to jump about. You are affectionate and loving - but very sensitive. You are subject to rapid ups and downs.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

some parts true

2005-09-25T23:55:00.000+08:00

Your view on yourself:Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on educationEducation is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

cuckoo bird

2005-09-24T23:27:00.000+08:00

ah bird is cuckoo.she suggested gg pizza hut or hawker centre for my bday. n said we gotta sit at void deck for hers.

indestructible self esteem

2005-09-24T21:57:00.000+08:00

my bro says i got an indestructible self esteem of unknown source. i take tt as a compliment thou.haha. it's not tt i dunno abt my weaknesses la.some1 once asked me y i like to degrade myself. so u see, i am quite balanced i think.its gd to have high self-awareness rgt.so when i think abt my gd pts i'm happy.when i think abt my weaknesses i'm quick to admit. eg no patience, too fierce, too lazy, poor sense of diretions, bad at typin n spellin, bad at practical stuff, lousy memory..tt's y it nv cease to amaze me when cheese can rattle off some funny syndrome. but no matter wat i cant help but love myself leh.juz gotta work harder to make up for those lor.

this wkend i'm quite surprised at myself.i've bcum so spoilt.i miss bein driven ard! (b went for short hol)n tmr got r's bday at toh tuck.it wld b so simple to drive down lor.but i gotta take bus n walk dunno how far.i'm headin straight for e food man. heh.

oh city chain got some v nice watch offers leh.even i'm tempted.got 50-60% off! n it's not those lousy cheaterbug watches.it's juz old designed sovil titus!

i bcame model on fri.not anythin flatterin thou.we visited a pt's place for proj.n gotta take some fotos.since i borrowed e digicam frm my bro who stays at hostel, i volunteered to b cameraman.but instead i was so lousy i was demoted to appear as ah ma to show e possible hazards at home.partly bcos i really unintentionally tripped twice. haha.

i hate doin case reports.

cant see tagboard?

2005-09-22T23:44:00.000+08:00

i hav now taken over my bro's old laptop.so now i got better internet connection! cos dunno wat can share some cable thing.i oso dunno wat he tokin abt. but i cant c my tagboard! when i ask oscar she say she cant c too.so weird.really cant c meh..
now my msn is so old i cant c fotos.gotta spend dis wkend clearin things liao..

3H bday outing

2005-09-22T13:56:00.000+08:00

this is for 3H girls.
skinny n i are thinkin of treatin our usual gang to crystal jade la mian (ah ma's all time fav) on 8 oct. prob scotts branch. wat time u all prefer?
cheesie suggested gg Settler's (got branch at holland V). i think it's quite a gd idea too.can play game,tok n eat.
pls tag or sms me ah. ah ma v lazy to do dis kind of thing wan so better respond ah.can lemme noe if u all pref sth else.

bday wish list

2005-09-18T10:00:00.000+08:00

after giving some sensible tot to it, i have come up w a wish list for my bday.

1) i still wld like to get some make up.but i think i shld leave dis to shoppin w my sis-in-law so she can intro me to dis puzzling field.

2) white gold chain--3H pple.haha since we're all in dis jewel-mood, i shld join in too.n i do need to get a chain for my ring to hang.so it cant b too thin.i got sookee discount.but i havn passed by any of their branches to check out.

3) short sleeve shirtS--all others. i realise i am in quite a dire need of these, as every1 in my cg wld have noticed..i oni got 3, n 1 is comdemned by b.n i've promised him not to wear it so oft.so i can do with more pcs! gd idea rgt. pls dun get those ex ones.i'd rather do w more pcs.

now then.doesnt dis make things much simpler.
b ask me if i want to hav a bbq.but i guess it's too troublesome.n i'm not sociable enuff, or harwokin enuff to try n mingle pple tog, entertain them.even if i do so,there wont b quality time spent..n so many pple havin bday parties durin dis period, i'll get to c every1 i wanna meet up w. no point doin double n get e v same pple rgt?n it's e test wk.so i'm really happy every1 else is havin parties now.heh. but skinny n i wld prob treat 3H on 8oct tt wkend can?mayb our fav crystal jade la mian? n prob i'll go eat jap food w JMDLH.. so tt's it for all e bday stuff.

sharon bday

2005-09-12T23:06:00.000+08:00

oscar: met up with jc friends for high tea (sort of) @ thai express...had such an embarrassing time there, so much so that all the waiters/waitresses were looking at us. we were discussing about the chop-chop-murder with head found at orchard. then cheesie suggested that the murderer should have blended the body instead, then wont get found and arrested. then i pointed to bird's ice-blended milkshake and said "blend like this ah?"...
but they gave me a really nice stuffed hand puppet that goes "grog...grog...". the frog is my new addition to my family! and the nice but fattening cake too...and they also gave me a big red angpao with the word "fu2" on it. there was 50 bucks inside. THEN, later they proceeded to divide the cost among themselves, and had no small change. SO, they asked me to open the angpao, take out the money and change with them!!! so hilarious, and paiseh...but nvm we're all used to our wacky behaviour already :P
that was followed by our little venture into the braNpanties sale at PS. they were so auntie, choosing n talking so loudly about underwear and sizes etc...later cheesie's bf appeared, and bird was so embarrassed to be seen holding 3 sets of underwear with "ang kong kia" cartoon pics on it. ah mah with her all-knowing tone said "paiseh for what? big shots also must wear underwear what!" oh my.
lastly was shopping for p.l. n skinny's presents (so many of them bdae in oct! im broke...) we pretended to be rich tai-tais and checked out ALL the jewellery shops at the place. about 4-5 shops! finally settled on two pendants, so efficient. and gave to one of the bdae girls on the spot, a mth in advance leh...ok, finally should tell u all about bird's mad detox programme. evry morning drink water till FULL...then induce vomitting!!!!! goodness

bird: We met this afternoon in between lunch and dinner to celebrate Sharon's (aka Oscar) belated 21st. Sharon invited me, Cheesie, Ah Mah, Meilin and Shiyi to Thai Express at PS. A rather nice place. We talked about a lot of things lah... and got all hyped up. Bet we were the noisiest people around. That's nothing new too.
We bought the birthday girl a toy frog (she just named it Aussie), a cake and gave her an ang pow! Haha because she wanted to buy a "tortoise shell" and we couldn't afford it. Nevermind, she can pick something she really wants with the money! And when we were settling the money for her presents, we kinda didn't have small change. So I asked her if she had 5 $10 notes and she said no. Ah Mah was like "No, you sure got. I'm damn sure." Then all of us were like yah yah you open your ang pow you will know. Haha... she didn't know whether to laugh or cry!
After eating we went to shop for bras and panties at PS because got sale! It was on the ground floor... I don't like to buy these things in the open like that because I feel quite paiseh. Haha but really got good buys lah! Later they went around looking for PL's present and I was like their consultant. Anyway, we probably went to like all the jewellery shops in PS! All trying to be pseudo-tai-tais, not very successful though. Ah Mah was funny as usual, she asked for the "super buys" in the shops! Ah Mah ah!!!
Then we were shopping halfway, decided that Shiyi's birthday is real soon so we made her choose her present too! Haha... then after paying I said ok lah, you can bring your present home before your bday! 1 month in advance somemore...I guess long-time friends are just long-time friends. You buy present for her when she is around. Sometimes never buy then give money. We have what I call "mutual understanding". You can do all sorts of "bad" things to each other, but yet we also never take each other for granted.Therefore, I conclude that today's outing was super xia suay and unglam. But without all these joy and laughter from you girls, my life would never be the same. And the very reason why I appreciate them is because along with the unglam-ness comes a genuine sense of heart-warming-ness whenever I'm with them. A kind of closeness I don't find with a lot of people.
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haha aiya it's true wat.pple muz buy one mah.n e ang kong kia is quite ok too la.haha had i known i wld hav bought e 'hot steam bao' set instead of grog grog for oscar.hiakhiak.
now i'm beginnin to like diamonds..oh no! n it's all bird's fault.she stopped us frm changin ur $50 earlier on.i knew we wld need small change liao mah. i chose grog grog! i really like it.i bet u wld too.

superstar

2005-09-01T22:33:00.000+08:00

i think weilian sounds v funny today.like he's tryin to curb his 'nose noise' so much e feel of e song is gone.n y muz kelly sing so many fast songs? at least she ended w a song i like, coco's. but i think coco's 10x better than her.she reminded me of lots of coco's old songs which i like alot. (partly bcos i haven listened to pop for a long time).. wo yi ran shi ni de qing ren, mei li ben nu ren, bei ai de nu ren, an shi..haha suddenly i feel so old..
will symp votes win e day?
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shi xinhui lost so much wt.she's got a great figure now i think.amazin hor.how pple lose fat so fast... *munchin at choco now to seek comfort.heh*

sian

2005-08-31T23:39:00.000+08:00

kids gonna have hols soon.i wish i hav 1 wk of hols too.i'm so lazy n passive i dun feel like movin everyday.i like lect tt i can sit back,relax n sleep..walkin ard tires me out.n findin pple, tokin to pple n copyin stuff wears me out too.i think i shld work part time in e future.can hav some time to urself.better quality of life..
this fri i'm gg roller bladin aft sch! so exciting.sat got lect,mayb dg,tution,cut hair,shop for sth,go for his ma's bday dinner.my sat is full liao.ie no aftnoon naps!
btw,i like my robot name..nocturnal assassinator.sounds powerful huh.
y is kelvin doin so well?i like junyang.y muz shi xin hui go?thou i like kelly too.i think dun need show down liao la.tt kelvin sellin like hot cakes,my bro said, when he saw them at imm last wkend.his fan base bigger?i like kelly more thou.but shi xin hui lost so graciously she charmed me..

2005-08-31T23:29:00.000+08:00

2005-08-30T00:25:00.000+08:00

oscar: Me n ah mah were so auntie at the so-auntie shopping mall. yah yah sun plaza has a country manna, though it has no business at all. haha we were close to the only customers the whole evening, and we talked so loudly as though it was our house. book the whole restaurant must make good use and talk louder mah. ;)
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free food always tastes better.heh.but e clam chowder w puff pastry is quite nice too la. dun understand y pple muz always go town to hang out.nearer for every1?but so hard to find quiet spots to crap n eat for long.
i so afraid country manna gonna close down b4 i eat it.heh. isnt it nice to juz sit back n chit chat w an old fren,doin throw-face ah-soh stuff? mayb tt's y tai-tais like to have aftnoon teas..

ecgs are headaches.i shall eat more eggs tmr to try n take revenge..heck, sounds alike wat..heh.thankfully r's gonna lend me her ecg made easy bk.
sun nap i dreamt of tokin to a super frenly pt.towards e end when i asked if i cld go his hse to follow up for my community case study, he refused!i was so shocked in e dream.i was tryin all ways to persuade him.ha, muz b i thinkin too much abt it in e day..some1 pls lemme go ur home..

rubbishy loose tots

2005-08-26T22:35:00.000+08:00

growing up is so amazing.was chattin w my pri sch fren who's studyin tourism in aus.so happy for her when i c her fotos.juz like how i go wow at e fotos 401 pple used to upload.so much changes since pri sch..n to think tt my pri sch no longer exists now..
met up w another pri sch fren who's studyin in uk for occ therapy.back for attachment n hols.n she's oso cheesie's fren.e world is so small..forgot to tell her another girl's in dentistry.they cld hav met up too.n so qiao linus is gd fren w 2 of my other transferred-out gep ex-classmates.n funny thing is i juz toked abt them w tt occ tx fren of mine a few days back.haha. granted tt e gep comm is pretty small..i cant imagine e 2 of them now.their images in my head are still those in pri sch.hahaha..shant elaborate..

my 3rd bro juz passed his drivin today.1st attempt!now everyone in my fam have/had a drivin license except me...

watched The Maid last sat at lido.din noe tix cost $9.50 now! oh man..it's a total waste of $ n time tt show.totally bo liao.too southeast asian countries targeted i think.not really for local market.n totally cliche,unrealistic n draggy thou it's juz 1.5hr.a copycat too.

i dun tok to HOs, MOs enuff at nuh.mayb cos nuh got professional phlebotomist to take bld so i dun c them ard much.n no team lists!wat a drag to simply read thru case sheets to screen for cases..but it's so much nearer, n i've definitely got more time to sleep..yeah..
sherm was v nice to help me collect e clinical prac guidelines frm deans office.n so weird 1 day deans office called to ask me to remind e pple who haven done feedback to do so.i din noe they so mafan gotta call up.n who's e 4 busy pple who din do? e 4 guys lor..

recently a fren donated her kidney to her sis.my fren's newly married n so haven had kids yet. wat love n sacrifice hor..2 months back when i din noe anythin abt her case, i told my bro i wld likely donate to him if he needs in e future.he was so touched he offered to let me do a PR exam! haha.but i din la... mayb i shld bargain for a proctoscope instead. Love is so amazing hor. if even our earthly loved ones noe how to give gd gifts,how much more our father in heaven if we ask..
my bro read sth frm tokincock to me.so funny!an article abt how we shld get TT durian to donate his kidney as compensation, n mayb e mediacock pple shld put up some stunts to get him to do so, afterall they've been doin such shows for yrs.haha.

One Peanut
The Moneytree Authority of Singapore (MAS) launched a brand new Singapore Dollar bill, which has been named the "Peanut Series". Each peanut series bill is legal tender equivalent to 600,000 Singapore Dollars, henceforth known as 1 Peanut.
The CEOs across the Republic have been quick to applaud the launch of the 1 Peanut bill. In an interview with a Mr. Durian, a CEO of a philanthropic organisation, who wished to remain anonymous, he said, "Now I don't have to carry suitcases of money home. Prior to the issuing of the Peanut, I had to carry a whole suitcase of small change home every month. This is because the people who paid me tend to do so in small amounts, like $5 dollars each time, and it can be very irritating. Now I am just paid 1 Peanut with a single bill, slip it quickly into my wallet and off I go. It's very convenient!"
The reaction by the general public was however cool. Most said that it is unlikely that they will ever use a 1 Peanut bill. With a average national income of S$3000 (0.005 Peanut), the average Singaporean will need about 2 lifetimes to save a Peanut. Said a Mr. Tan, who is a plumber, "The other day, I installed a golden tap in some CEO's bathroom and he paid me using 1 Peanut for the $1000 golden tap. I tell him where got enough change?
Watch out for the newest security features on the 1 Peanut note, including a new watermark which replaces the traditional lion head. The new watermark can only be seen under an intense bright light and close scrutiny because of its extreme lack of transparency.
According to MAS spokesman, the added security features are extremely important given that 1 Peanut can probably buy three 4-room HDB flats, or 10 Nissan Sunnies, the average Singaporean will be very tempted to lay their hands on a Peanut."
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watched pm lee's ndp rally on sun.i was so surprised i watched thru e whole 1.5hr, quite interested.a sure sign of aging..i rem fallin asleep when my pa watched goh ck's talk.but e talk was short enuff la.n w so much new techy stuff.all e nyp students muz b super famous by now..

lala

2005-08-10T18:17:00.000+08:00

oscar: finally had a proper outing today with old friends. literally, for "ah mah". those who are usually loud became louder, those old became older and those normal like me, still normal. *phew*. so auntish i think the whole sakae sushi heard our extremely malu conversations...someone spoke hokkien somemore ah!
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thanks to bird, now i have a nice tshirt, next to my fav H-bonding one.hah
on national day i saw fireworks! at sheares bridge.alot of pple there, n motorcyclists juz got off at e sides.n i was so surprised tt there was this 'man-made' jam at e ends so we can drag a see fireworks!but it was nice la.n incidental too, was coming back frm parkway parade, my fav shoppin centre of e moment..

said sth interesting recently.i told a fren tt i really like e sensation of peeing n pooing.sounds real gross but it's really gd lor.it's sth we cant pay money for..like so many patients in hosp juz tryin to do those n cant.n in those terminally ill pple,often e aim we have in mind is juz to enable them to eat n S***, to preserve some dignity of life... im such a easily contented person..

some frens recently shared some stuff abt their life w me.was quite surprised.am i a gd listener?hmm..

carine

2005-07-30T13:39:00.000+08:00

Carine: Cheesie and Ah Mah decided to come and visit the lab after hearing I was there. Ah Mah is as Ah Mah as ever. I told her cannot make so much noise but then she obviously didn't register that. Haha they were very excited and then asked a lot of questions, as if never see PL and Tien Tien for 10 years already. Wah I felt a bit paiseh. Think people were laughing at us. Dunno why they treated the lab as if it's their playground. Ah Mah even asked Tien Tien to let her do breast examination!!! My eyes nearly popped out when I heard that. That cheeko-mah... I really hope she doesn't treat me in polyclinics or hospitals in future... otherwise she will do a lot of funny things to me one, hor Ah Mah? Hahaha... then see me fat fat kept wanting to touch me! But I'm not as delicious as Meilin lah hor!!! Cos I'm roasted... muahaha...

ah ma got gd appetite..can take both bird n lunch at same time..muahaha.

bday

2005-07-24T14:23:00.000+08:00

ah ma's apples-juicy n crunchy!
yest was bj's bday.n i spontaneously tot of a bright idea.i freq bring fuji apples to sch n he's always eyeing them so i gave him an apple! at 1st he din wan, then i said 'u think u're snow white ah, n i'm e witch huh.dare to dun take my apple!' haha.i so creative rgt.

then i met jr for an early bday lunch.we both heard of this nice jap restaurant at cuppage frm diff sources so decided to give it a try.it's ala carte rather than conveyor belt, n there were quite a no. of japanese so i think it shld b pretty decent.she ordered a paper steamboat set which comes with salmon sashimi,tempura so it was a gd spread.i ordered this long unagi set w soba,rice n tempura.i really like e big fat tempura prawn leh.as usual glutton me stole her food.yum.dessert n appetiser was famous amos (we were too hungry to wait for e food at 1st) got 3 other branches-at ecp,katong n marina.but i'm quite puzzled by their menu.alot of sets come w both rice n noodles.got 1 set got 2 types of noodles n rice!i saw a jap eating it n i almost fainted.so much carbo!tryin to b sumo?

paragon got new shop--Toys R Us!!mayb 3H outing can go there.i think it's a pretty big outlet.
then we went isetan at lido.i juz realised i can actu use my vouchers for make up!but i've used up alot of it liao..anyway i noe wat i want for my 21st bday liao. i want make up! shocked rgt? but i think it's quite apt as a comin-of-age gift.if i dun learn now, i'll nv learn..prob is there're so many choices available,it's confusing. n diff pple prefer diff brands.i presently have : lots of eyeshadow,eyebrow pencil cum liner and lipstick.i need:
-foundation.heard 2 way cake easiest to use.
-blusher w brush
-mascara
-concealer
ranked accd to importance.can forget abt those cheem brushes n remover la.any oil-based thing shld b able to remove rgt?
my sis-in-law recommends MAC foundation (cheapest one is $44) so jr was dragged by me to e counter where i bombarded e salesgirl w lots of qns.she muz b thinkin i'm such a cuckoo bird. but i learnt sth interesting.oily skin pple shld choose foundation tt's 1 shade lighter cos it'll get oxidised later to b darker.we tried 2 diff shades on either of my cheeks n when i got home later i realised it's true!e one tt really matched my skin at 1st turned so dark i looked like a malay.while e paler one was juz nice.cheem hor.i think foundation is e most impt.i wonder y some girls like to make their face so diff a color frm their neck.isnt it wayang-like?

went wet market shoppin today w ma.i c so much similarity bet us it's uncanny.e way she walks,shops,bargains..i'm almost a replica of her.n e way we walk down stairs is e same!we're both so scared to slip n roll down,we walk slowly,with 2 feet on 1 step b4 makin e next step,n skippin those wet areas.gosh..e power of influence.

foul mood

2005-07-23T11:08:00.000+08:00

i dunno y i seem to b rather moody these days.n seems like i'm not e oni one.2 days back i threw all my toys,bolster on e floor,against e wall.i always imagine myself throwin e clock n my hp too,but thankfully i still got sense n self-control.i think i seriously got a violent streak in me.wheneva i feel angry,i like to imagine myself beating sth/sb up.ally-mcbeal imagination style.shld try to kick this bad habit.thankfully i'm small sized n noe i cant fight for nuts,so i better dun court trouble.an alt way to relax is to look at e guppies n 1 turtle at cgh.i really like lookin at them leh.n e sound of e oxygen pump causing turbulent water flow is v soothing too.so ah ma actu likes animals,bsides those tt can b eaten..mayb they shld have some pet therapy for autistic or behavioral prob kids.like those big spongey ball or swing they have in therapist rooms in special schs to sooth e kids' senses.
last sat i went bukit timah area,bhind rgps.got a really interesting small community of shops there.saw 2 rolls royce in tt area too.got this super nice german butchery shop selling all sorts of meat n sausages.quite high class.then got lana cakeshop,animal 'hosp', w/ AnE dept n switch off hp signs!n a 'greenwood fish market n bistro' tt's got a market n restaurant section.but e stuff r ex.then we went adam rd hawker centre to eat.got this nice malay couple who passed us their half used parkin coupon.nice rgt?
i dun wanna tok abt pts liao.some r v nice n i'm happy to noe they're discharging.but some r so sad i dun wanna c them...ah ma is a coward..

not so bright

2005-07-09T15:13:00.000+08:00

i think i'm getting more n more dumb.i took ages to do my write up.n when i read thru it i still think it's super lousy but i dunno n dun feel like doin anything more abt it.so long nv write anything decent.n his is a post op case.mayb i shld have written on someone else.n i haven read anything in txbk bsides wat i gotta write up on.even tt i juz hurry up read thru.so cheem.
ok, enuff of complainin.i'm juz glad i got a wkend.n a whole sat aftnoon by myself. does anybody park-thaw with herself? heh. but my mp3 player is spoilt!not e mp3 part, but e usb port part.canot sense.but i juz used it last wk!sigh.it's getting old n faulty like me.
i had a bad fall yest while running aft e closing lift.i fell face down like a baby learnin how to walk.my palms were so red, n i got a 4.5x3cm blue black on my left knee.i even took foto of it on my fone.ha.so painful n malu!e lift pple had sympathy n waited for me.all for e grand ward round at e unearthly hr of 730am which nobody dared to b late.ah ma not late leh.almost not ah ma liao.reminded me of 2 other horrible times when i fell.both in sec sch.once is during nafa test where we ran shuttle run in the hall.i ended w a climax.i slipped n landed on my knees n slided across e last metres.so spectacular.like i'm some rock star.i got even bigger blue black on both knees then.another time was when i was running across e road to get to bus stop to take 190 to orchard i think.e green man was blinkin n all e cars were lookin at e 3 of us.silly girls runnin like mad.then i tripped against myself n fell.guess wat.yx was runnin rgt aft me n she cldn't break in time n fell on me!tt kind of tar road!w tt kind of thin pinafore material!ouch..
i was quite shocked to hear e news on thurs nite too.they're juz so gd at creating fear.it's so hard to build things up but so easy to destroy.reminded me of sth 'unless e Lord build e hse, e laborers labor in vain'. man-made peace and prosperity are so vulnerable.it's horrible but i think alot of our security stuff juz reflects how insecure we are,rather than really give us security.
today cheese said sth interesting.she was tokin abt sec2 history when we learnt abt mayan civilisation.(i hate history)then it's amazin how advanced they were but yet they resort to human sancrifices.i told her actu our time n age is also liddat wat.we may appear super advanced now but still pple are interested in geomancy,crystals,charms,bantang,meditation,alt therapy which can get really weird.tt's bcos we all have spiritual needs bcos we are made so.it's inplanted.it's inherent in us.so long as we dun fill it up with wat it ought to b filled,we'll forever b searching.y is it pple rather believe tt e no 4, a black cat bring bad luck, and old wives tales too like not bathing for 1 month aft birth? or y do we belief wat we hear abt e mayan pple?we take it as truth w/o botherin to really ascertain them.or think tt smart pple up there muz have ascertained it else it wont have passed down, but yet dun believe tt e world was made by God? can such a cheemworld (juz look at e human body) juz appear w/o a reason? mayb it's bcos believing requires commitment, n we're all lazy to do tt..

last wk in wards got a Mr T tt made a strong impression on me.he's e 1st patient i saw tt cried while tokin to us.n he always had this tuff look somemore!for a moment i tot i felt my eyes were wet too.an old uneducated sceptical old man,but w such tenderness for his wheelchair-bound wife.a weird feelin to see some1 so many yrs my senior,n a tuff appearance,cry in front of me, a young stranger.i guess humans are all emotional,vulnerable beings at e end of e day,no matter how tuff we wanna look outside..
guess wat.i was happily bloggin away until i forgot i got a RBR bk overdue!she charge me $1! but she say they allow up to $5 before they block me from borrowing.so i haven paid yet.sian! so dumb.i wont incur anymore fines.hopefully they wont claim frm me when i grad..

sian

2005-07-02T23:52:00.000+08:00

i feel so tired n sick n useless.e lack of sleep muz be making it worse.i feel like screaming n bashing something up n at e same time sitting down to cry.my bro ask me if evening primrose oil helps.i tot it's for menopausal women? gosh,ah ma not tt old rgt.but i think nice instrumental music really calms pple down....
i hate it when i'm hungry or tired.n today i was a big bodoh.wanted to take bus frm aye busstop to j east.cos i tot 95 freq quite low.then i din noe 198 goes j west instead!ended up i spend a real long time n higher bus fare to reach boon lay n i got to take mrt back to cck.how bodoh can one get?i was so shocked when it went past sci centre n started gg chi garden,lakeside area!but i din dare to get off cos i'm scared i'll get lost.how i wished then i cld juz get off n cry n b wld somehow noe n come n bring me home..how much more loser can i get?so un-macho! i wanna b tough cookie k.
sang cheated-klunch. suppposed to b 11-2.but full liao so they offered 1-3 for same price.but 1 hr less.we made do.sang alot of those super old songs.when e waiter come in i too paiseh to sing.cos so young girl sing so old song.pple my age singing jolin n wat while i sing those songs tt're so old got no voice one.oni tunes.haha.
ate nice chick rice opp founder's bak ku teh for dinner.
yest's buffet was nice,but not really out of e world.e desserts looked better than they tasted.n they nv replenish baby lobster!how can!i din even have one!but e choco fountain which i can stick strawberry-on-satay-stick is fun.now i noe my fav cheese is called walnut cheese.it's light tasting yet creamy.yum.i really like cheese.haha,pun..sashimi,oyster,smoked salmon..it's a wonder i din get diarrhea.

1st wk at cgh

2005-07-01T14:08:00.000+08:00

today's e last day of e wk for cgh.e pace here is so much slower than tt at sgh.e env is v warm n frenly too,quite diff frm e rushed,no-nonsense n overcrowding feel os sgh.even e cleaners,tutors,assistants are all so frenly.n pts too.but of cos e cases are not as many n varied.now i appreciate wat i've seen at sgh.diverticulitis is like so common while it's a wah here.but ok la,both place got their gd n bad.but i'm getting quite slack.dun clerk anything! then go home so late dun read also.this wk, mon,tues,wed,fri i'm home aft 10pm!cos i always got sth in evening.sigh.i really pity my future pts.my 1st attempt to draw bld failed.when he's got such nice big veins!n he's not scared of pain wan!my 1st attempt to set plug was even more truamatising.dun read,dun clerk,cant even draw bld.how will i be adequate in future?but i finally asked n manage to do a pr all by myself.i guess we've juz gotta learn step by step..no wonder e course is so long.bo bian! if u're feeling sorry for me,pls offer to lemme do pr/draw bld/sest plug from u k? jr,help!

but e dist is really takin a toll on me.thank goodness b drives me in morn.n ht n cl manage to get rides too! but i muz remind myself not to take it for granted or assume he's my driver.it's really out of e way for him.dun make any sense at all.n so early!when he cld have gotten up at 9 but now at 6+.poor him.i feel so sorry for him.
now i'm at cgh.comp can blog! aft this i 'm gg to take a tour ard cgh.aft tt go gym!haha i heard they've got a pretty decent gym.cos i'm gg shangri-la for buffet at nite!b's colleague bday celeb.so i'm gonna eat all e hao liao.so muz exercise.heh.

my tution kid wanna do phy,chem,a math for upper sec combi.i think i'm gg to sweat bld liao.. be a sheperd dog n chase him like mad..

end of hols

2005-06-26T21:54:00.000+08:00

so sad.so fast end of hols liao.i din even have time to watch my vcds,have picnics,visit zoo,or park thaw enuff.wat i did this hols:
-church camp 1wk, w lots of buffet n msia food.
-rice table,coca buffet, 3movies
-jb 1 day visit
-klunch w jr
-joo chiat food trip
-serangoon garden food
-7 dvd, 4 episodes of grey's anat
-met up w pri sch fren
-met up w oscar (did u all noe thai express oso got loyalty card?quite worth it but nowadays like everywhere oso got loyalty card)
-played pool! i'm so lousy i can take forever to hit e ball into e hole but i still think it's fun
-parveen kumar signature
-pick b frm airport n saw yq!
-1 wedding dinner
-went back sgh for logbk
-packed my cupboard,table
-some shopping

not bad la.did a fair bit of stuff.put on lots of wt.realised tt i cant even do 1 proper push up now.so shocked at myself!my flabby arms shook like mad.n oso great difficulty doin sit n reach.once upon a time these were so easy to do! jiaklat.hopefully sch will make me lose wt.. i heard they've got gym.i like cycling machines! make-belief tt i can really cycle..

introvert

2005-06-22T23:38:00.000+08:00

hku's med fac gg to change name to hku li ka shing fac of med cos he donated hk1billion.haha reminded of our yong yu lin sch of med.
got so frustrated watching zhan shen aka mars, pirated version frm china.n e story is so psycho n morbid!so shocking.but i'm comforted by e large dose of zai zai.heh..n quite intriguing la.disc1+5 canot watch using my bro's laptop!in e end gotta trouble wt.isn't it gd to have frens staying nearby?n i saw sth interesting at her place.got zhao gu zi dian! as in dictionary for making sentences!if oni i had tt in pri sch lor.
went jb yest.w a whole lot of pple.v worth it rm6 movie.now i finally noe e beginnings of batman.n i oni bought one tiny fun card n bottle of water!gd,nv waste $.dinner wasnt cheap thoubut quite fun to go out w them all la.like class excursion..H-bonding!

i think i'm so weird.sometimes i'm such an introvert,sometimes extrovert.sometimes i do enjoy gg out,tokin crap,taking long meals and meeting new pple.i can tok to aunties on buses quite easily,i'm game to try new stuff,i even took initiative to tok to ruth on 1st day of sch!when her face appeared so sian somemore.
but many times, i like to b by myself.go ntuc by myself,go shopping by myself,gg home by myself.n when i do stuff i dun like to b interrupted by calls.i enjoy chilling out at home, i love gg home..juz simply reading ST,or listen to my ma complain abt price increases at market (ha!now u noe why i'm so sharp abt prices of groceries)rm told me a funny dream recently, recalling e times we compete to race home aft sch.i'm a slow person, n i need alot of private space n time alone to think,abt wat i've done,wat i din do..
everybody got 2 sides to them rgt.mayb mine is quite equally spilt..
i need more time to nuah..starting clinics w cgh feels like taking a deep breath to go underwater.i hope i can tahan long enuff,cos next time i resurface wld b 4 months later..gosh,i sound like some water monster.when i cant even swim!haha..

ah ma turning vegetarian

2005-06-20T12:51:00.000+08:00

guilty abt all e rich n fatty food i've been flooding my system w, bright-idea me suggested to b to have a herbivorous dinner.he bought fugi apple,rock melon,cherry tomatoes,lettuce,durian,maongosteen,dragon fruit,banana,grapes n fruit juice for dinner really.i've nv felt so sick so easily full before.half way true i felt like a tortoise.i think i wont b a vegetarian even if u pay me a million bucks.how can i b happy w/o meat? i looked fwd so much to lunch tmr man..not bfast cos i wont wake up in time.

dreamt of funny dreams again.haha!i dreamt b smokes,drinks,and has a fiancee while i'm e secret mistress!*gasp*i think i mixed in my fren's story abt her carryin a torch for her best fren's bf,and e associated secret rendevous,mistress-like behavior.n i dreamt tt anin has a psycho but smart fren who re-wrote a bk originally written by a 1800s author named hugh.n her fren dedicated e bk to her for e counselling n advice she gave.haha so weird hor..

hols

2005-06-13T22:49:00.000+08:00

came back from KL on fri. 1st time on car up instead of coach.so much better!no need to carry luggage down, can stop anytime we want for gd food n durains! (we followed another seasoned driver..reminds me of seasoned marinated meat..hehe) but tol charge so ex.esp tuas link.stopping at road side eating durians n ta-paoing them home can b real fun too.
stayed at sunway lagoon hotels.e dry themepark no kick one.i guess if u pay peanuts u get monkeys.but ah ma really gutsy leh.i sat alone rgt in front in e 2-seater for this 'top-gun' thing tt turns upside down.most fun ride.my wt was on my shoulders n my feet off e grd.so fun!
i ate so much so much.secret recipe, A&W,baskin robbins,auntie annes, i think my poor system is overloaded w fats.
church camp was v gd too.v refreshing.n i was a gd girl.also e most nua youngster ard too i think.i'm e oni one to keep taking aftnoon naps cos else at nite i'll fall alseep.din go ice skating.bit of a waste.but did really cheap archery.used to b so ex at marina.n my room mates are v nice too.she intro me to shiseido stuff!i'm a lil overwhelmed.mayb i shld start by washing my face regularly...

n i cut my hair real short! in sg la.i almost cant recog myself too.n price increase so much!2 yrs ago was $12.now $16.n i compared shops k.mayb i shld ask my ma to cut my hair short 1st b4 gg.then it's short->short so not tt ex.hehe.
i went w b to his army mate's weddin on sat at raffles marina club at tuas.got a wedding package v interesting.can sail in on small ship to guests on shore.so fun.but no air-con la.then he gotta go off aft sharks fin cos he's gg to jap for hols,guess wat i did. i STAYED BACK TO EAT. i was so crossed at e young chap who cleared our table so fast.no 3rd bowl of fin for me =( e whole table was so shocked to noe tt i wasn't directly related to e couple but stayed back to eat.hehe.then my bro n b went airport,then my bro came to fetch me home aft my eating double portion.hehe oni ah ma can do this kind of thing. in exchange my bro can drive e car till thurs.

no cooking outing to oscars rubbish dump this hols.i tot dis time can join forces w lunch to cook up a storm.but oscar ditched us for big drumsticks.so sad.
met my pri sch fren today.we tok thru lunch,tea n dinner.so amazed we can tok sooo much.n i ate 2 crystal jade cakery's shrimp paste wings! my new found fav. yum.
tmr got rice table buffet..this is indulgence at its most...

post e-clinics

2005-06-05T00:12:00.000+08:00

ah ma is getting less ah ma-ish:
1) went to see star wars today!my 1st star wars u noe.haha dun luff at me.i dun really have much of an interest in sci-fi stuff.
2) signed up for a make up course! w cheese. i-nuovi at suntec.we signed for 9 jul.my sis-in-law also mentioned abt this place b4 so shld b ok.$35 if singnet bill is shown.$40 otherwise.class size 6-12.2hrs.got $25 voucher to buy stuff, w/o min purchase.quite worth it hor. abt time to start learning la.thou i'm so tired n lazy everyday i cant even bother to comb my hair aft bathing, i wont b puttin makeup.
3) bought a $40 shirt(aft discount) from isetan.my most ex shirt yet.
4) bought a was $69.90 skirt from iora!haha shant say e price aft discount.pple who noe keep quiet k.
5) been playin cheem cheem games like citadel and winning too!..upgrade from my fav brainless monopoly n donkey,happy family games.haha.

ah ma is still v ah ma-ish:
1) ah ma still like freebies! e star wars tix, complete w popcorn n coke, is courtesy of david's auntie.thanks yar?.hehe.but i actu found e show v funny.i tot it'll b those cheem cheem use alot brains show but actu it's juz ang-moh styled hk shows(sound like some dish).some fancy weapon, names, in a futuristic setting.also got palm-power n pple flying ard.so next time i need not get intimidated.but e leads were v gd looking la.n i simply love e lil' green prophesy-making monster.so cute!
2) ah ma scared lugee so wanna go early for buffets
3) still wants pple to hold on to, to cross roads.even at sgh.
4) went parkway parade today aft orchard.prefered sub urbanPP much more..n Scoopz serves v v v nice ice cream!jackfruit,soursop,avocado v nice! better than serene centre's..
5) still prefer e traditional way of building relationships ie talking over a game,gg someone's hse play game rather than watch movie or ktv.more interaction in former.like pri sch time liddat.
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anyway eclinics is over.yay! i think i did a terrible job.nv read my books,cannot feel anything properly, deaf to additional sounds,forget to do stuff.e tutors were merciful to pass me.but at e end of e day i'm so tired though i haven done alot.
celeb jack's bday.haha n smarties for 'jack' is better than MnMs since both cheese n jack are so ban dang rgt.went jack's place too.no steak served!haha!i'm so creative! n e black jack thing is seriously v apt.
better rest well, play well, eat well this hols.n pls ask me out from 12th jun onwards.got 2 wks to catch me before sch starts again..
pple gg away hope u have a safe n fun trip....