Wednesday, January 28, 2009

1st cny

1st married cny! Q a diff experience giving out red packets. every yr it's e highlight for me to receive. now i gotta tell myself it's better to give than to receive. and super not used to pple calling him xiao-jiu-ma or shen-shen. ha! i feel like a kid still.
grateful for e break. 5day work wk makes a lot of diff i think, emotionally. hopefully wont be swamped with calls when we all start taking leave in e next months to come.

used my rice cooker this posting. n loving it! b cooks really nice rice with dried scallop, chi sausage, dried shrimp and mushroom. for our own re-union i had a whole abalone in addition lor! sedap ++

and i got myself a thermal pot for cny. to cook porridge/soup. i cant stop marvelling at my kitchen. small like mad, but got all sorts of gadgets. as if i can cook. haha! but i baked pineapple tarts all by myself! with cheesie's gd recipe. huili and yx gave my pigeons. so i ended up doing it all myself. n it's seriously fantastic. i think e recipe is v gd.

mopex 30/1/09 2359hrs. still wavering. dun feel like listening to pple's advice. still wanna try Emed.at least e adrenaline rush will make me feel awake and useful, and i learnt so much during my time in sch, i believe i'll learn so much more thru work. God will open doors to e right place for me.
cant believe we're gg to be MO soon. incredible. how to guide and teach e new HOs? i'm still so green and blur myself. and my brain cells have been hibernating since Med was so long ago. ask me anything abt electrolyte imbalances and i'll just faint. it's 1 thing being 1st posting HO, and all e bosses are forgiving and just gd attitude can save e day, vs MO now they expect u to think and present meaningfully and begin proper mx plans. and running clinics! gdness! but i guess nobody will ever be really prepared.

are nice pple born in jan? so many wonderful, indescribably nice frens born in this month. wat treasures they are in my heart. love ++ =)

Friday, November 07, 2008

exceedingly random tots at midnite

check out www.picasaweb.google.com/blurlinda for my wedding pics!
thanks to my frens who really love me. i'm so happy u're in my life, and share such a happy moment for me. =)

in colorectal now. wat a break from hepato and neurosurg. glad for e break, bef all my calls get crammed tog at e end of e month.

yest i bought drawing block. haha, started drawing really ugly stuff and coloring. but heck, who cares, as long as i'm happy. it's titled blessings. at least it's got a gd name. heh.
just like my most recent banana walnut cake. not nice but so wat, i'm learning to enjoy e process.
so many things i like to do, thou i dun do well in. y shld pple only like the things they do well in? haha, starting to explore kiddy stuff at my gd ripe age =)

recently had a free lunch w yx,pris,wt. yum! and i heard i got a new rice cooker. hehe.i bet tt's e most auntie bday present anybody's bought.

life can be so simple, and sweet, isnt it?
even a cake made with expired baking powder, and e wrong flour can turn out nice. plus 3 crappy shows is actu a nice and simple gathering.

then again, today i heard some horror stories from my fav MO. being responsible and acting safely is so impt. some things are just unbelievable. made me think abt my own scoldings and other near misses that did not get e scoldings. i wonder how many of my seniors actu had things to say, but were too nice to say to me. i hope they tell me off. & imptly, i must not make e pitfall of e stupid. which is, thinking u noe alot when u just noe e tip of e iceberg. how many times have complacency and arrogance caused mistakes..uncountable.
1/2 yr has passed. time to think abt wat i want to do. since young, for most part of the time, i've been pretty directed, and know what i want. but now, i do feel a little lost. been getting advice from a star-performer senior, which i dun totally agree with. i've got 40yrs to work still, wat's taking a yr to try things out?
just like my fav MO-turn-Reg. he did so many diff postings, and is so impressive, how does it matter he turns Reg a little later?
inspiring seniors are so impt. dinner today with fav MO also motivated me. sometimes, u need pple like these to remind u of wat's impt. i muz try to be a better senior =)

watching Ave Q tmr! heard so much abt it. if only our theatres are small as those in uk =(

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

married!

lotsa things happened in last 6months!
final mbbs, grad, started nuh med, started paying alot of bills and ma, engaged, ROM, nuh surg, then finally married, honeymoon now gotta go back to work!
everything's kinda like a whirlwind. so fast no time to think, to feel, to ponder.
but now bef the dream gets better, it's back to Zzzz reality.
but thank God everything went smoothly. no major hiccups along the way. cos my plans were sorta like dominoes, 1 linking to next. so if just 1 of it stops, e rest will kenna stuck. haha.
thanks to all the pple who have helped me..from e nice tutors/MOs/HOs and of cos kakis who helped me to pass exams, to my nice nuh bosses/MOs and frens, to my family who cant wait to help me to shift out (anyhow pack my things over) and wonderful frens who chu qian chu li for my wedding.
okie, at least i can tick off q alot of life -To-Dos- off my list.

so now i'm comfortably settled down, albeit haven cooked a single proper meal/mop floor/wash toilet, but guess things wld turn out fine =)

btw, e cute animation during the dinner was my 1st time seeing too. haha!
alot of pple say i look gd on my wedding. normal day also pretty okie!
haha
my frens who'll marry next time, pls ask me to be ur jie-mei k!! i marry young doesnt mean i'm too old for fun! i'm a funky ah ma!! heheh.

Monday, June 09, 2008

1 month over! ramblings

i survived 6 calls thus far! i deserve a pat on e back and a big bowl of frog leg porridge!
woohoo~. still, like wat my supervisor says, e feeling of impending doom bef each call is natural.. e trick is not to think abt it n juz do it.. every time 530pm comes i tell myself 8am will come!
cant wait to get call munny thou. havin 1st pay was gd! thou got nothing much left. haha. it's liberating, yet at e same time, heavy. aiya, so oxymoron. dunno how to say. like freedom comes w responsibility tt kinda cliche thing.
now i'm outta isolation. but still generally abit iso. today unkle mok commented i looked v stressed while reading sth. but e fact is i wasnt stressed at all. juz tt when i'm thinkin or doin work i look super fierce. ha juz like 1 senior MO. he looks scary like he's gonna bite u when he's not smiling. but when he smiles, he's like a teddy so cute u wanna pinch his cheeks.
thankfully my mos so far are well known for being nice.else isolation wld b harder to survive.

alot of things happenin at home! not only am i settling down, my bro's gettin his flat too! so exciting and scary at e same time. it's such a bane in sg isnt it, payin so much sloggin away for e rest of ya life for e rat hole. but we're all juz pretty much stuck in it. wellz, at least i think e place is really nice n centrally located. my hse now is like a warehse w 3 sets of sofa, how many thousand boxes and tables. when i get up to pee at nite i get abit disoriented even..haha! sometimes i cant rem wat bed i'm sleepin on, cos sometimes on call dunno where i am, then now my old double bed is gone n my room is totally diff.no wonder they say blind pple can accomodate v well in their own homes, but dun change their env too much..

my new fav food is bonjour choco bread. $2.90 and it's enuff for my dinner,supper,bfast,lunch! 4 meals! relly worth it rgt. i tot work wld make me slim down w/o my knowing. but weighed myself today i can oni kid myself thinkin it's bcos i nv pangsai/pee tt's y i'm so heavy. muz be e delicious venezia mango ice cream cake i ate yest. all it's fault. but oh man, it's absolutely fantastic. i really went high on it... EVERYONE PLS GO AND TRY. $45/kg. woohoo~ i think it hit my amygdala or dunno wat part of my tiny brain almost whacked me out.

anw, i muz have work-life balance and find time to bake pineapple tarts, and get oscar over to try her new atas cookbk. my linguine frm last time still haven cooked..

Saturday, May 10, 2008

grad.work.marry

so 1st of all lemme assert my firm belief that e oni thing we have to fear is fear itself--nameless, unreasoning, unjustified terror which paralyzes needed efforts to convert retreat into advance.

yet i'm so full of fear sometimes.
but at e same time full of thanks.

i've oni got 5 calls this month!! yay! i was e 1st to go on call in my batch.. i troubled e mo like mad..but thank God he's so nice.. ok impt thing is not to make e same mistakes again rgt? if i were him, i'll hate me lor. okie, next yr i muz b pt with my juniors too..

i'm in isolation..literally. i'm e lone ho in my ward, which is oso an isolation ward. n i realise i realli lack social skills. n being in isolaton doesnt help. i cant small talk or warm up to pple for nuts. i oni how how to keep quiet, talk less, try to do more. i think every1 muz b either thinkin i'm super duper boring, or v dao. it's not la. juz tt when there are so many things to do, of which so many i dunno, all my efforts will be spent on e tasks, rather than e pple. n all these yrs, i've left e niceties and talkin to cheesie to do. i always juz laze at e back n nod my head to second her. now i seriously dunno how to socialise lorz!
n i'm so eager to learn, but there dun seem to be enuff opportunities for me to ask, so when there is, i keep asking. i hope they dun think i'm too irritating.

all e same, i have a nice air-con ward, with really gd nurses, nice reg and gd senior which i always bug to help me do plugs. *sheepish*. n my reg always makes a point to sit down in e mornin w us, go through e comp every case, usu ~15 in all, of which 5 were new yest. i like these sessions alot, makes me go through e tot process, which is so impt n keeps me moving. else e jobs alone will make me sick. i think i shld bake cheesie's pineapple tarts for em. but really got no time. tmr on call again!
i think med at work is really more interesting than studying.. but med is also abt apprenticeship i think. its so impt to have gd seniors to learn from.. ahh..makes me think of my crush mo (now reg) haha!! i dun mind taggin to him for e next 5 yrs lor!!

but somethings really warm me up..let's recount:
1. b delivering old chang kee to me! and offered to stay w me for nite call, thou i think he wld b bored like mad, n cant help me too. but i really really apppreciate e tot and his prayer.

2. wes n huili always offering to help me! when i'm in iso w TB TB and more TB, it's nice to have someone to check on me, see tt i'm still alive.

3. my fav nurse, a v capable one too, gave me meiji yogurt today!! yummy!! and she said i've got gd attitude, v diff frm other hos. i was so surprised. i asked her is it?? i dunno how other hos are like, but i do noe i'm slow and incompetent n really need to do alot to make up, esp for plugs! anyway, e tongue can destroy or build up, and she really encouraged me alot. but i do think i'm more eager to learn during work, than in sch, and frm wat i see on facebk, alot of my frens are too!
haha i guess sometimes being stewpid is gd too. keeps me humble and hardworking. aftall, God uses e meek and disabled to shame e so-called wise, isnt it?
my iso ward is a gd place to start la.not too busy (thou i wonder how others out there are), gd nurses and bosses, and nice air-con!

4. i cleared up 7 left behind discharge summaries! stayed back on sat,sun, and cont on mon to clear up. at least the old is gone.
i realised altough for my personal life i'm q haphazard and lazy, for work i think i'm fairly responsible.i'll make sure i finish all my own work. mayb i'm not such a bad kid aftall. still, b said he'll rather see a sinseh than me.. *bish*

hope my call tmr will be a better one! juz e 1st wk. cant burn out so soon!!

Thursday, April 03, 2008

Man propose God dispose

birds chirp more happily...
e skies are brighter
e air is more refreshing..
i feel truly alive...
this is life aft MBBS...

so glad it's all over..loong loong journey.. like a marathon.. n i dun have stamina one.. and my brain is no gd. so it's really a big relieve..

ha, this marks e end of my student life..
so amazing.. and God has truly truly helped me so much.. else there's really no way i can go thru..

'O's.. nv do 1/2 my summary for Eng i still rem.. and my ang moh has nv been gd. n my HCL got A2 too..so a little less n no triple sci for me..
and all e IBS episodes.. where i was diarrhea-ing and pressing my tummy while drawin all e E maths perpendicular bisectors, and using my French curve.. and E Lit while i was scribbling like mad w 1 hand, e other pressing my tummy..

'A's.. althou my grades were pretty avg by rj standard, i cant hope for more man..
it's e best i can expect.. i noe my standards. really. and i was so hopin to get into Med sch..so i can do sth i like, and be in sg near my loved ones.

NUS.. thank God for a gd bunch of frens, esp Cheese who helped me so much. lazy me need lots of peer influence to work hard.. hehe ^_~ thank God for all e bursaries thru these yrs.. they really helped me alot.
and this final mbbs was really sth. all my long cases ie surgery,paeds, adult med are all type2 Diabetes.. haha.. there's nothing more straightfwd then this. NOTHING. and nobody evers get such coincidence.. alot of pple say i'm lucky. but i noe v well, tt God really gave me these to help me thru. bef e exams, i was thinking, even if i din make it this time, God has already blessed me w so much so much, more than i can imagine liao.

everything juz went so well in His timing.. all things truly work for gd..

now need to pack my feelings.. alot of stuff to do these 2 wks, bef results and orientation. i really need this time badly. and to meet up w all e pple i missed.

adulthood..sth pretty scary to me. but which is inevitable..and i think i have subconciously entered despite me still thinkin i'm a kid.

adulthood is an irreversible stage of responsibility characterised by:
1. aging parents leading to role reversal
2. bills and $ stress
3. marriage and family life +/- kids
4. work stress

haha!
e 1st time i felt like i was becoming an adult was aft PSLE.. when i set up my first bank acc.. OCBC.. got my atm card. a small taste of personal financial management.haha. 12yr old also can do this by urself. then in sec2 my 1st time holding on to street directory and finding e place where a bursary award ceremony is held..then debit card e wk i turned 18, when i promptly went to e ghim moh branch and signed immed.then gg to US on my own..survivin e many transfers.. and later uk by myself..

today i called up DBS loans hotline 6333 0033 to make some enquiry abt e nus loans, aft checkin nus student financial acc pg (u can check ya current loan status at nus pg).. this month will be a busy month meeting pple, takin care of loved ones, and plannin for future..

but e conclusion of e matter is, i'm thankful to God, and esp for giving me someone to share my life with..

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

mb this wkend. bs over

1 wkend to go..then lotsa stuff to do during hols!
stress really can give u lots of prob man..

1. irritable bowel syndrome.
i kept diarrheaing lor! n tummyache. juz learnt today it's due to serotonin. i'm always like tt during exam periods..since psle i think.so now i noe y

2. loss of appetite

3. sleep disturbances/nitemares

4.post-trauma stress disorder. all e bad images keep coming back to my head

5. reflux and bad digestion. i keep feelin full, early satiety. then always like reflux cant lie down sleep properly. worsens my sore throat too.

so mayb chronic stress do lead to shorter lives..